Daniel Pike

My contribution to the world

2011-11-08T15:46:00.000-08:00

World if you read this then all the more better but really all those few who seek the knowledge embrace my contribution from my experiance. Yes I have not blogged in a month sadly I have been busy simply living life with no time aside to monitor it but nevermind.

Where can I start, the understanding that things where a paticular way once before, but I know now it was not a permanent state of being. It was silly to think that I knew what was to come next. But I am trying hard and to this day am still learning. First always believe in yourself, success is a state of mind a state of well being. A positive feeling. Your more likely to succeed if you honestly put aside what you persive as a flaw.

I say fuck it no flaws just more room for growth. I wake up knowing I can do great things with myself physically but I know I must remain open to absoultly everything. Have no expectations of the future, carve nothing in stone, simply flow like the river stream.

Walk down the clouded valley and exit in a realm of new beleif and enlightenment. Why not? I say be free, never doubt yourself be free do it.

One last thing my world changes as so do the people around me and those I meet. I may have felt one way that day but not so for this day. The setting sun behind the ocean hills will always say this to me. The dark shining ocean and her beamed eyes and gentle skin hint to me that no matter what downfalls I came across despite my barriers I overcame it and now experianced a moment of happiness I longed for all year.

I love you Nicole. Tu êtes le meilleur et j'adore tu :)

I was lost but I was destined to find myself during that venture I found you before long my eyes became more open to my state of being :)

Thank you everyone for your inspiration :)

l'art du discipline - Parkour

With the new

2011-10-11T08:13:00.000-07:00

So my recent change in life has begun. I have a new girlfriend a new job and my career is growing. I have visited my family in Scotland learned about my ancestors, seeing all these photos of people I will never meet yet contributed to my existance. I am changing myself too, I am happy and content and look forward to what lays ahead. My training has improved I visited london and tested myself round my own area. I have learnt to let go and trust in myself and just don't know what to say.

I found myself in a rut but for now feel I am not in that situation and ready to continue with this journey. I just want to thank everyone in my life for making it all happen :)

Peace x

20th September 2011

2011-09-24T12:12:00.000-07:00

On this paticular date something amazing happened. I woke up in my bed nothing strange there. I felt a similar sensation as I came too. I made my way to Bournemouth and trained with Matt. The session started out what I would have called average. After a few big movements and jumps bigger than previous expectations I was hit with the ultimate obstacle.

The double kong in winton, I had never done before. Previous attempts left me fustarted and scared. I preped it a couple of times but knew the decision was to be made. I turned away Matt set the camera in position. Time stood still looking away I viewed a familiar painted white wall that stood tall. I went through a complete life review. Slightly afraid I admited my mistakes. I put aside my expectations of the future or better yet my future.

"I didn't care anymore." A week prior I chose not to go home which let to me meeting a female I had not come across before. Our friendship spwaned and in time we began seeing each other. Despite my expectations in previous months the ups and downs I realise it was out of my control.

Nothing was easy nor was it safe. But I knew it was what I wanted. I was thinking about the bad things that happened across the world and that my shitty pipe dreams only clouded my view on reality. Looking back on this year I was very fustrated, I was upset and I had to experiance all that to achieve something. I know that there is a bigger destiny awaiting all of us. But right this seconded none of it mattered.

I opened my eyes and there I stood facing the painted white wall, I smiled at the thoughts in my head. Happy at how I ended up at this present moment. I has absoulte trust in myself so I turned to face my destiny. I allowed a little suspense to build but soon I began to run towards the somewhat largish wall. I leaped my hands and feet generating power that lifted me high into the air. Travelling towards the second wall my hands planted, all happened so quick. In a blink of an eye I was on my feet facing away on the opposite side from where I took off.

My eyes more open than ever before, my expectations put aside whatever I was feeling was to last a lifetime. I could only feel the sheer excitment for my existance. No regrets.

The following days would only further prove my growth and understanding in this journey. I could not have ever possibly imagined such a feeling. Despite my mistakes I know it was part of growing up.

Damn it !

2011-09-14T14:46:00.000-07:00

I just posted a blog and it never saved let me try again, things have been going on shits changing, I'm happy. This year has shown me what it feels like to be happy and to be sad ect.

I feel I am in a good place :)

I know that nothing is set in stone but its ok to have ambitions and dreams.

The change

2011-09-11T16:37:00.000-07:00

I have achieved the things I longed wished over the years. But now I say aim higher aside the ego I wish to pursue something with a deeper meaning. When I wake up tomorrow the journey continues but with a different frame of mind. Because I beleive I am capable of much more, even more than I am doing today.

Awakening

2011-09-07T17:14:00.000-07:00

I had to post this before it slipped my mind. By far the most important blog entry of my life to date. I read a book by austrailian journilist named John Pilger. The book was given to me by my father. I had read this before back in January, I remember feeling somewhat down and uncomfortable. At the time I feel I was not ready to take in such a harsh reality based on my own lifestyle.

However since January I have matured and decided to pick it up and read it again. My initial reaction was agrreance. Every word made sense. I felt disgusted at myself and every other citizen of the western population. Our ignorance towards our life. I felt almost physically sick when putting into the play the world around me what do I see that displays the truth spoken not just by this man but the others which I am yet to read about.

What was there. . Advertistment everywhere I look, strive for perfection, the pursuit of happiness, ego, media, consumers, retail, money, power, corruption.

I hear from people on a regular basis, dilemmas, unsolveable problems. Forever pursued by shit we don't need, television that is crammed down our throats on bollocks we would all be better of without.

I recall flicking through the tv to watch celebrity big brother. When reading the book "The new rulers of the world" I laughed and cried inside at my wn ignorance by watching such trash. I do however feel better of than most. I do live a somewhat free spirited life, yet I still at times feel driven by my ego. I won't get out of bed unless I feel I have a sole purpose that my ego feels must be achieved.

I say fuck it, tomorrow morning I will get out of bed whatever the weather take a walk into town and sit, look around and observe the world we live in today so I can really appreciate the words absorbed into my mind. I feel reawakended. Reading the words that almost brought me to tears has broke the chains I felt bound towards in life. Suddenly everything feels somewhat lighter, irrelevant. Nothing matters, because the rules do not apply. There is no balance, because there is no logic in any of it.

I will continue on my path with my mind opened ever so more. Blessed by the knowledge of this harsh reality. The illusion seems so apparent, viewed from both sides I can see simuntaneously. I feel no fear because the damage has long been done, the inevitable ways of our life I was born into. Why be afraid this world is no fairy tale now the vale has been lifted.

This is only the beginning of it all, the beginning of an awakening, the beginning of the end of my ego.

Inspiring movements

2011-08-30T08:09:00.001-07:00

I was watching a video of daniel ilabaca, were he was round his own area experimenting with all kinds of movements. It was great to watch cause it only further proves that anything is possible with this. You can do all kinds of movements in different areas.

That was all I had to say really. My wrist is healing and have been finding new routes and movements at the postland school :)

Letting go

2011-08-26T17:52:00.000-07:00

I slowly with time have let go. Accepted this life and come to the idea it was and is, has always been an experiance. Being happy, living this life, having no doubts, exploring the different realms. Growing up becoming something, being someone. Being alive.

This time last year I posted a blog titled "Thats life" The entry was a praise of all my recent achievements, my success and the stuff I had learned and experianced. I posted nothing after that until March. Then I posted my recent events and downfall. My recent breakup, my sense of lonliness and confussion. Though again I post a blog now to say I picked myself up and made something or it all despite the emotional ups and downs.

I leave with this last say hopefully in March I am in a good stat of mind.

"This is the oppertunity to be anything you wanna be, it's never too late. Look around and see all is a blessing become the very thing you wish to be. Grow with time, be patient and vigilant but be happy along the way. My work is about making a believer out of the unsuspecting. To become soimething, to use my potential, to have freedom.

To experiance such feelings and to look back with a smile to say it was an experiance worth having. An experiance worth living.

Confessions

2011-07-24T15:11:00.000-07:00

Given myself a moment to think I feel what I am going to put is absolutly neceserry before I move on with my life.

I was regularly fueled by my ego because as a child I lacked any real talent. I admired others but was involved with activities that were not practical at all. I suppose I wanted to be like the kids at school or my best friend at the time. I was not cool at school I had a crush on several girls over a period of several years during high school. Those girls where of a different group, I failed to bring them in because of my different and somewhat odd atittude.

Though I hold no regrets those people where certainly not the group I would have wanted to be apart off. Looking back it kinda makes sense why it never worked out for me when trying to become part of the sheeps.

The point is to this day I feel I have to prove something to make up the somewhat downfalls I may have experianced in the past.

A relationship that often left me confused about my own sense of emotion and future. A confidence issue I experiance all through my adolesence. Trouble fitting in as I had a strange sense of humour. Often finding it difficult to mix with crowds these days unless they are athletic or knowledgeable in some sort of subject of interest.

I allow my ego to push me because I seek a destiny in life. Some what delusional I don't think my ego is all that bad I just feel I become to attached to the future I plant in my head. Pursuing a difficult career involving writing, parkour, gymnastics and martial arts.

Though I enjoy doing it all. Though I am putting aside what I potray as utter BULLSHIT as it has not helped me at all. I believe in myself though can grow anxious at times when trying new things partly due to injuries I sustained in the past. I am putting it aside cause I accept the consequences of my actions.

It is a dangerous sport and way of life but even falling has its benefits. I put aside the fact my former girlfriend does not love me and has long moved on. That does not make me in anyway a failure nor does it mean I have anything to prove to anyone.

I say this now. . .

I have nothing to prove nor offer. I am Daniel Pike and I do what I do simply because I enjoy it. I accept that at times it can be fustrating but no doubt do I realise every part was all and is a learning experiance. What little visions crop up in my head or ego projected thoughts are gone. Fuck em I am not bothered.

I just want to do Parkour and push myself for all the right reasons. . I for one moment don't cast aside the possibility of injury I know I can get hurt but again it is just about the experiance. I can reduce the injury by being confident and training hard and well.

My vision of the future never happened like I though it would it doesnt matter something else happened instead and it was all the more greater. This is my life and I love it. Forget the future, forget the inspiration towards others. Forget this idea of it having any impact.

If all kicks of then cool never doubt the possibility of a prominant future. Nevertheless remain open to whatever.

This is my life, my experiance, my passion. This what it is all about . . So let just see what is in store because I just can't FUCKING wait to get out there and find new things about the world and me . .

Here I live a life without boundries, limitations, no fear or doubt I live a life of freedom, of passion and of inspiration. It was all worth the experiance no doubt

Tired

2011-07-13T03:10:00.000-07:00

I'm sick and tired with the finding logic in everything approach. I try and do things by the book so I do a good job of it. Annoyed at myself for over analysing everything. Tired of trying to make sense of it all or be the best.

I say fuck it, I choose not to make sense of anything anymore ans just see what comes of it. I choose not to do something with a set expectation.

I just don't wanna be held back I think anything is possible and I am my own key to my success. It is not all that complicated so I do not see why I should discuss this further when I know as of now what I have to do. .

Hidden potential

2011-07-04T15:57:00.000-07:00

I am certain we all have an inner strength. A person within us that is stronger than we could ever imagine. Confidence far beyond what I could imagine.

I look myself in the mirror and I see deep within my pupils this paticular strength look to me. He is dettached and has a main focus. He aspires to do great things. There are no limits for this person, there is not a great deal of emotion or thought required.

No doubts, no dwelling or any concept of ego. This person I see when I look in the mirror and 40% of my waking day do I become this person. The more spontaneous I act the more of the person I become.

I feel I have less to say and little to dwell upon. At ease and open minded I feel reassured at my state of being. I understand my talent and strength but no it is not everything and it is not to be misused. It is to purse my every growing path of curisoisty not for egotistic matters.

So I guess I say to myself I am ready to become this person I have felt myself grow into. Ready to step into the realm of this mysterious dimension. Away from the previous life I feel myself change.

This was all a choice and it is what I want. I feel I am ready . .

What next

2011-07-02T18:00:00.001-07:00

After months of training and jumping about I decided today about 3 hours ago that I will push myself to the absolute limit. I wanna know what I can achieve from all this I accept the possible dangers and injuries that I may expriance but it don't matter to me I just wanna know how far I can go.

I wanna do well it is my dream. .

I know what I want :)

There is no place like home

2011-06-21T14:55:00.000-07:00

This day 3 years ago I moved to Weymouth. I can look at all the things I have achieved I have also finished college forever. So it is nice to see that 3 years ago I was embarking on an adventure on what today is now the next part of my life. Looking back to each year makes me realise nothing should be taken to seriously. Serious as in should not be treated as a permanent fixation of time . Everything changes and the hassle I may have put myself through has been forgotten I only remember the good. So may as well just focus on the good cause its all I will remember.

I look back to see I tried to hard only to think I should of just let it be it was fine that way :). It also snaps me out of my life last year which was when I was with Rebekah for 1 whole year. Looking back makes me realise that it was only a small part of my life things where happening way before that paticular year.

Anyway this place is my home at the minute I promise to take things easier and enjoy it the setting around me. Laugh lots and be amused at the things of life. A new stage in my life has began doors have opened :) :)

I am listening

2011-06-11T17:04:00.000-07:00

Recent events have inspired this blog entry. Overcomig the past for good and understanding my place in all of this. I mentioned before about my spirit guide that protects me and points me in the right directions. It tells me when to hold a second long and when to leave not one second to late. I am here to say after all ups and downs and mishaps I am listening.

I had a recent encounter with rebekah which I attempted to get her back only to see she does not love me anymore which I suppose I kinda already knew. Why do I still have feelings for her? Well I guess I was strongly influanced by the experiance and miss the fact I do not experiance that now though keeping other things in mind. I can only look back so much but will not help me in anyway achieve what I want. Something I set myself long before any of this so I could say its pointless to get wrapped up in something else.

This experiance has not been the most enjoyable though I feel is neccesarry for me to grow. As my dad once said it is better to have loved than to have not loved at all. I made a wish to experiance something beauitful and I did but however it had ran its course and we were both being side tracked from our own goals in life. To which has lead to this.

Knowing that as I go through life I will no doubt meet other woman but I have begin to consider something. Meeting woman should feel as natrual as anything in life like writing poetry or making the bed. Or for me like doing a kong vault. It has a sequence and follows a pattern. You know the way and how it is done you know what you must do and not do. It feels natrual. If any of those things do not feel natural then something is wrong.

I will meet other woman one day and the connection and chemistry no doubt will click natrually because I see myself as a likeminded guy who does not try to hard and is laid back. A scenario that took place tonight I will explain.

I was out with my friends and in the clubs I would think of meeting woman maybe getting to socialise. I bump into a group of girls some I know some I don't know. I tagged along and as the night progressed I could feel myself being surrounded by people who I do not normally converse with. Tention began to build and even close encounters which lead to me walking away. Fear of fighting I chose the option to walk for me I have no regrets. I was unharmed and I was nothing more than victim of wrong place wrong time and I was being challeneged by others.

After all that I went home sober as I do not drink and I stood by the sea. I just gave up on all this bullshit and decided that this has become silly now. I am pursuing something which has little or no awards for me. I have very little positive to gain from chasing these types of people. I have something good going for myself Parkour, Gymnastics, Writing, Personal Training. Those are the things I enjoy and also seeing friends but my friends I relate to that is my older friends.

So I am here to say that I am listening I am putting it all aside as I know it will only hold me back. Yes the future will come and all this will be a memory in which I will pick and choose what I remember. I love the life here and everything around it I don't accosiate with the people I came across today and I know to becareful.

I will stick by this phrase.
"If you cannot be without it, then you cannot be with it."
Moving on with another female for the sake of it will not do me justice I know that. As for Rebekah I just need to remind myself that the relationship was not perfect though I got to experiance alot. We were both fortunate and we got alot of positive from it. I have taken in what life skills come for the mistakes I will avoid making in the next relationship. Not that I made any major mistakes but I tripped up a few times. I know that I accept that and take it with a smile cause I did a good job of it all and so did she. We made each other happy but me well I just had to make a choice which contained more than I bargined for. The next one that comes along I will cherish every moment and love them very much.

But till then I have other things to be focused on and I will give it my best :) I will look back from time to time and smile as each yeah has been a blessing I am fourtune to have experianced it all. But I will avoid the ego desired goals that will only lead to downfall and trouble.

I'll stop going on now as I think I get the point. Life is all about learning, nothing stays the same so it is important that we make the most of now and embrace it Something I am determined to do :).

My final say in all this

2011-05-19T04:50:00.000-07:00

I had to say this before it left my mind. The last few nights have been different, similar training and progress. Better flexibility in the hips higher kicks. Sad in some form I do have the tendancy to look back, as strong as I have become it still creeps upon me.

I do miss her I won't deny it yet I try everything to stay strong. I miss holding her and I miss the compaionship of another human being. A pure connection. Yet I am thinking something else. My inner guide or drive within me telling me to pursue something different. This absense is a learning curve and has certainly taught me well. If I could get it all back it would show that I have learnt nothing at all and there is no chance I can achieve anything.

It is a sad reality when I look at it like that but yet feels neceserry. To have the will to continue on my passion in the upmost confidence gives me inspiration to continue on with all this. The truth being I just couldn't have continued on my path with her in my life. I had to let go and move on to what I wanted. I'm slowly learning that now and I am trying to come to terms with that.

So I can say as many farewells as I like I don't feel the impact she had on me will ever escape me for it was one influance I will never forget. I will move on though and I will be strong because it is what I want.

Living backwards will only hold me back. Admiring the present and aiming towards the unknown certainly has its awards.

I am curious to know how far I can take all this and see how far I am willing to push myself.

I just need to repeat this to myself to help move on.
"Looking backwards will not help you move forward, you know yourself to make the right choices embrace the experiance and take the good things with you into the future"

The start of it all

2011-05-06T12:13:00.000-07:00

Before I start I went through the blog and peaked at all my entires from way back where talking 2009. It is interesting to see how I tried to progress my training and interesting to see how I have adapted and gained knowledge in ways I did not feel aware of. Looking back you can see I had little knowledge in anything such as adaptation or knowledge on the human body.

I don't wanna come across as harsh the only way I gained knowledge of the human body was to pay £600 on a 3 month saturday course in gym instructing I then worked at a gym who then put me through a level 3 qualification which can cost around £4000. So that is why my understanding of my training is where it stands today. I do enjoy looking back to see what kind of person I was and to see now the person I have grown into gradually yeah it's been 2 years and I can see alot has changed. I will comment on how amusing it is that my training back then consisted of stupid amounts of reps and sets of squats calf raises and press ups. With my knowledge now I snigger knowing that all I achieved was local muscular endurance, however my Parkour training did help me progress strength wise ect.

Anyway yeah shit has changed since then and only by reading through the blogs reading my own words did I truely understand. It can happen so quickly that you get little time to look around and really take any notice. Yes I have grown up a great deal in 2 years very much so.

I am proud of my efforts and pat myself on the back for dragging myself to this point for I am yet to talk about what I wanted to say in the first place.

Firstly that Parkour session from the last entry it went well and I nailed that kong precision well I bounced off but that shows progress ha . .

But . . what I wanted to say was last night I went to poole gymnastics I have had a week or so absense not that I don't do this stuff outside on the grass cause I do :|
So it is not like I'm missing out trading the sprung floor for grass is good for progress. So yeah I was on the train and went through various stages of coming to terms with the little things that got on my nerves because frankly there were a few things I know have been keeping me back. In a nutshell my problem was my ego, the one thing that has put in akward positions before. It leads to insecurity and I know lots of people have it but not something I wish to have not in this life with this profession.

So I walk off the train to the gym and when I say walked I mean not jogged with music blasting in my ears pumping up my ego for the session ahead. I walked and I focused on the now because I was feeling uneasy at how time seems to be accelerating all of a sudden. Anyway I focuses on the moment and put aside the past or the future and said something to myself that I have never said before.
"It doesn't matter what the future holds even if I ain't doing this stuff cause I know I'm in the right mind set to do whats best for me."
There and then I was hit with a reality that I have been holding back on myself, after all the poinent moments I have experiance in my life why would I to this day hold myself back in doubt?

So it kinda really kicked of at gymnastics where I am faced with long mirrors where I used to look at myself and think something negative of myself, well that session I didn't and when I tried something I just let go and trusted in myself to do a good job of it. What I achieved that night was nothing short of a revolution on my part I pushed myself and did things beyond my normal ability.

Even the next day (Today) I was different trusting in myself I knew something had changed I knew it linked back to the moment where I made a silent pray to my guide and asked to let go so I could become the person I have longed to be, so I did I let go and fell into the realm of the unknown. The trasnformation never ends and looking back just now have I noticed how almighty the change has been. I am not the person I was 2 years ago yet I act like I have been this person my whole life :P

So I finish on this I feel I was harsh on myself in the past I know it as a fact now I try what I can to not be negative towards myself or others, be happy, strong and put on a front so I can give others strength and confidence. For I am a person that I wanted to be someone I knew I liked cause I do like who I am sometimes you need to look back to remind yourself what it has taken to become that person. I will continue on from the progress I made yesterday :).

Trust thy self . .

Idols

2011-05-03T06:59:00.000-07:00

I do have many idols that I follow some I look up at and admire and hope to one day be as talented as them. So I do what I can to focus and try my best and I have felt myself progress as so did my idols.

It goes to show with enough effort and just basically wanting it and knowing how to get it is what helps achieve it. To be realistic is important but to put aside all logic and do the impossible is another, baring both in mind I think all the effort pays off.

I have things I want to do with my life and many of them I have tried at and have in some way thought I made a good effort, it is part of my growing and development. Without sounding egotstic I have recently noticed that I can easily catch the attention of passers by with what I do. However I have come to realise that all of that means very little, yes I enjoy the support but my own support is the most important.

Well Parkour training tonight got a few things I wanna try and get see if the effort pays off tonight ;) ha anyway gotta run . .

What I want

2011-04-30T07:33:00.000-07:00

Well it has been a few weeks mainly due to having no internet, but I must say I have been keeping busy. Keeping fit, healthy and positive. I am moving on from the past I do get into the habbit of allowing it to hold me back which leads me to miss an oppertunity that occurs in the present moment.

This habbit does happen less frequently I know what is holding me back, fortunatly keeping busy helps me move on and so I have progressed at what I enjoy. I also study my personal training on a daily basis which helps with my Parkour development. Anyway I don't want to go on I'll just say what I came on here to say.

I want to move on and put aside the lonliness that has certainly put me down at times. I use it to my advantage but I know I must keep strong and avoid assuming what the future holds should I stand a chance at enjoying any of this. My vision was not the same of anothers which is down to indivdual perspective. Everyone is different in that sense, looking back I know that the feelings I felt were influanced by another but brought on by me, projected by me.

I am easily influanced but as I get older I do become stronger and I do begin to trust people less. I take in what others say with an open mind but I make up my own decision.

Anyway I am off and I will leave on this note. I will focus on my energy and the influances around me on the positives, I will do good things with those oppertunities given to me and pass that on to others.

I know what it feels like to be strong, I also know what it feels like to be weak, happiness and sadness two opposities that follow similar principles however understanding them and yourself is what gives you control. Also its about choice, choosing to fail, choosing to suceed and too do well.

Time

2011-04-12T15:30:00.000-07:00

I been out training loads, crazy how things change, I look back on the past I suppose its about the experiance, remembering certain things.

Reminsing is a good thing cause it is important to remember the person I once was and what events lead me into the person today. I was training round town tonight it was good and I went round spots that I see all the time I suppose I went to places I took my ex girlfriend when I first met her and showed her my parkour.

I thought how crazy it was how this all happened over 1 year ago and how quick time goes. It is important to value every moment and go with it I said to myself that times you maybe down but others you are up.

I am not upset that the good moments come and go because right now I am in a good moment, I am happy, at peace, alive and well. I train and I remain strong. I know familiar moments will occur maybe in this town maybe else where.

I know that I will find myself in a singular moment in time where everything seems ok, practically perfect, time stands still all seems right. This moment will pass but I would have experianced that moment and carry it with me allways for it is not soon forgotten.

You may think I had forgotten but nothing is further from the truth :)

I send a farewell to the distant past and blessing to my former self for he had served me well. He made the right choices to get me to this day. I wave goodbye to that moment in time I pray for your journey to be blessed.

Thank you for such wonderful memories I will hold them close to me on my journey of life.

Thank you so much rebekah pollard for being such an influance on my life and showing me so much about myself but most importantly thank you for showing me happiness you have indded made me a stronger person thank you for the love :)

Self inspiration

2011-04-09T10:08:00.000-07:00

I looked back at my blog entries from this time last april and smiled in shock at my own determination.

The truth is I was in a relationship from jan 2010 during april I did not see her as much due to her exams so I focused on my own personal growth as I had just turned 18 reading the blogs I was so into everything and wanted it so much and it was all for myself, only I understood the motive.

However by the winter of 2010 I moved away from portland and the weather took a turn for the worse I continued to train in the gym but something was missing. The spark I had was gone and everything was forced and I felt so small in the big bad world.
However in my relationship I stayed happy but soon become a routine where we seen each other all the time and I mourned my old self from april.

So after meeting a guy from my gym that I work at I felt the inspiration of myself come back as we spoke on a very similar level. This lead to the deterioation of my relationsip. It came to an end in February, at first it was ok I found my rhytme and life went on however like most long relationships heart break soon followed.

But I still carried on with training and even to this day all is well as you can see in my previous blogs.
I will admit I was sad yesterday and today not acting myself I was unhappy and missed the past with her. But I am so greatfuly I caught a glimpse of the older blogs from last year cause I understand why I did what I did and how down it got me that I had lost that spark I had last april.

Certainly the spark returned shortly before the break up however with its up and down moments, despite how sad I did get my performance never went down. I remeber last year sitting on the bus to gymnastics reading my spirit book and relaxing before the session in my own zone my place. Sad my girlfriend at the time could not relate to me I fully understand why all this happened.

I had made a choice to become the person I loved best Me, I will admit circumstances change I am not the person I was last year because things are different I work now, I train differently, talk differently and enjoy different things.

But I know not to forget that person I was deep inside me because that is an example of my inner strangth I had lost in the winter. I am that person once more just a little matured.

I remember who I am and what I want in this life, I'm so glad I found that again, maybe all those things were a build up to this moment now.

I just hope all goes well, I am optomistic of my efforts despite the my inner ability to predict the future events.

Note to self:

If in doubt remember who you are, remember you did it all for yourself !

Upcoming truth

2011-04-07T01:25:00.000-07:00

I was in bournemouth yesterday and did things that pushed me, I put myself through all kinds of things that had me trying to overcome mental barriers. It was like that in Derby.

All my life I was brought up to be cautious and to stray away from danger, then I started Parkour where at first I fell and injured myself and even ended up in a cast twice. Being in a cast is stressful and does take up time for me it was 4 weeks and 2 weeks rehabilitiation. So yeah it has taught me to take my time and not go crazy but after yesterday I went through psychological hell only to land something and burst out laughing at the ease my physical body was able to do it.

So I guess what I am saying is sure I have balls when it comes to this stuff your everyday person will look at it and doubt their own ability immediatley as we do in this society.

But I am not comparing myself to untrained indivduals I am on about me. I know it can be dangerous at times but the last week or so has taught me that I put in enough effort and I train well enough to be responsive to even big obstacles. It comes down to the training I have been doing Parkour for 4 years now, the first year and a half was spent in Corby with little commitment and I rarely pushed myself. However 2009 after my 17th birthday saw me push myself to bigger running precisions and I become more aware of how the body grows. Now I am 19 and heavily into personal training I know a lot about different reistance training and how the body responds in different ways to each training.

Parkour requires a very generic base of fitness your talking core stability, strength in the lats, shoulders, triceps, quads, hamstrings, calfs, trapezius. So basically all the major muscles of the body.

However its training them in the right way. Tricep extensions and kick backs will improve climb ups kong distance, however you also require lots of strength and power in the shouldersand trapezius. The shoulders and back are made up of whats called rotar cuff muscles mostly working as synergist muscles so for them to be worked your gonna have to do free weights throwing in a mixture of different shoulder work outs.

I don't wanna keep going on about this what I wanted to say was every movement and pattern the body goes through is based on motor units and activation of muscle fibres. Now the reality is I find it difficult to overcome something that is new or beyond my set standard. So really what I know I can do is do more training in the gym activate the motor units and twitch fibres so that when doing something different the body responds well in a manner that gives the best result to minimise injury.

However looking at it on a mind side I could be the worlds fittest person and still not be able to do something simply because I was scared.

So the truth is I will get hurt, I will fall and probably several times, I may find myself in moments of agony and fear. I can do what I can on a physical level to minimise any injury that may occur simply because shit happens. However I noticed that when committing 100% there is a lower risk of any intrinsic things going wrong (basically an injury occured by ones actions) rather than because he pussied out and landed funny.

So I know what I want to do I know shit gets scary but It is what I want and it is why I am here. So in absoulte confidence I will overcome what I can to push my boundries both physical and psychological.

Trip to Derby

2011-04-02T15:35:00.000-07:00

Whilst visiting Corby I went to Derby for the day training with Michael and Andy another corby local. During our trainign we met others along the way who trained with us.

I did a few things that pushed me which I caught on film which I will upload. I then went to the gymnastics club in Derby and met damien walters again as well as other I aint seen in a while.

Many of them are very good and very talented, I picked up a few things from them but others just really come with continuos practice. After leaving the gym the sun was setting and the city was quiet and it was peaceful. I wondered if a similar experiance would follow in Sydney. A beautiful city crowded by day but peaceful as the sun goes down, people commuting to go out with friends or family. It was a very peacful and nice experiance Derby is a beautiful city I must admit.

I felt alittle down once getting of the train at Corby tired indeed I just needed a sit down but I missed my ex. The only reason I can think is normal nostalgia if that is how it's spelt. Missing the fact I was once in a teenage romance that turned into a tedious adult relationship. However they were good times, fun times and it was something I had wished for as I was younger. I do feel alittle lonley but hearing my mums voice reminded me that I am never alone I have a loving family.

With flashbacks of my own performance and others I chuckled at the thought of all the things I wish to achieve. Having my work cut out for me means I have so much to do but its what I want.

Daniel Ilabacas saying helped me overcome a few things "Falling is a choice" to which my responce is "I don't want to fall" Applying care and consideration to my movement. Yes I feel a little lonley but I just miss the past I have come to terms that such a lifestyle would have only held me back to something I know deep down inside I want more than anything.

I wanna do well at what I love and it makes me smile when I know all is possible when setting your mind to it. I have done well so far.

Birthday

2011-03-28T16:01:00.000-07:00

2 minutes ago I turned 19 suppose I am not really 19 until 4am but nevermind. I remember my last birthday very clear, my dad rang me and I asked him.
"So dad what now what do I need to learn to become an adult?"
He laughed saying it is not all that simple. My girlfriend at the time text me to say happy birthday, unfortunatly we are no longer together but nevermind.

What has happened in the last year well I got a job and become a qualified gym instructor, my knowledge has expanded on fitness and antatomy. I have experianced wonderul things I have been in love experianced love. I have watched the sun go down whilst sat in the middle of a harbour. I have travled to places spontanously only to know more about myself.

I have had a vision that I stood by and I have had a dream which I still have today. I have watched myself grow, I have cried, sweated, laughed.

I have put myself in positons where I was past the comfort zone but continued into the realm only to see a whole new side of myself.

I have had highs and lows, moments of uncertainty and moments of feeling invincible. I have lived my life, I have met people. I have experianced love and heart break. I have grown spirtually, mentally and physically.

I have made great choices and not so great choices. But I stand here today to say I am not done :)

I completed te first chapter of a story that means so much to me. What will I be doing for my 20th birthday I wonder, hopefully I am in austrailia with some friends I might have made along the way and enjoying my life.

But I am glad what has happened this year and there is much to be done more to be learnt. I dont know what to expect but I am gonna give it 110% :)

To the future !

Training Update

2011-03-27T14:59:00.000-07:00

Training real hard, I tried to sign onto a new blog but i decided to keep to this one as this has been my baby from the start.

Well to start of a little note on resistance weight training and body weight exercises including dynamic motions. The idea of the training when broken goes something like this.

Lower Body

This is broken down into the Quadriceps, Hamstrings, Gluts and Calfs on a basic level. Exercises include squats, one legged squats, leg extension, calf raises, hip abduction/adduction. That is as much as I can think at this time, now I always go by the number 12 reps and 3 sets (Hypertrophy) which with the right amount of intensity and rest time will result in improved lactate threshold, activation of type 2a muscle twitch fibres which are essential in Parkour and Gymnastics. Now the other thing being the activation of motor nerons which is linked to propriception also know as muscle memory and in some ways "sixth sense like reflex".

Now the problem being is going by the perfect routine which is best for my sport or discipline gymnastics is slightly more straight forward however parkour is a slightly different ball game due to the way it expands and has little limitations. One method includes Power training ideally a good exercise would be a barbell dead lift, the motion of the agonist in this case extension of the knee and hip. Now moving at a very speedy rate as much as possible will activate motor units around the quads, hamstrings, gluets and that other lower back muscle I cant fucking pronounce (Quadratus Lumborum) there are other muscles but I'm still studying.

Guidelines of power training say 1 - 4 reps to fatigue were talking some heavy lifting here and if not traing is gonna hurt a tad on that lower back. The other dilemma being my gym is not a body builders gym it is a public facility so the heaviest barbell weighs 45kg which is not enough.

So what I do is exercises that use as many indivdual muscles and muscle groups activating as many motor units as possible. Periodisation comes in handy at this point.

UpperBody

For me is straight foward cause what I mentioned before but I don't do power as Parkour uses alot of upperbody and I do alot of handstand exercises which are demanding and are very specific. But still I do shoulder presses with dumbells, chest press, chest fly, lateral raises, shoulder front raises, tricep extension, tricep overheads and I could go on all day.

Got studying today but training recenlty has been awsome nailed standing palm flips today, Parkour is going awsome but I gotta study so will update soon.

Follow up

2011-03-23T12:38:00.000-07:00

My last entry shows I have my ups and downs with the break up who wouldn't it was a long relationship for me. Right now though I am now thinking about that, in 6 days time I will be 19 years old.

Suppose every birthday I look back on the previous year and ask myself what I have achieved I won't get into details but I have done pretty well for myself in the last 6 months. Credit is owed to my family and friends not just myself.

Anyway all I have to say is as time goes by I realise the bar is raised and the effort needed to achieve something my new motto being "Work hard Play hard". Giving everything 110% all of the time and also knowing when to quit or in my case take it easy and chill.

Times have changed in a quick pace I accept that I mean who wants to live the same routine over and over again I know I don't. I will be sticking with blogspot as I like how nobody reads this but me maybe some 40 year old brazilian guy but that depends if he can really read English ! O_o

Anyway the reason I havn't been updating this thing is because when I moved I had no access to the internet or my computer for that matter . . . .

I did however update my blog through a diary which I wrote in pencil ^_^

. . . So I feel I am going about things right I know when to change things I know the dos and don'ts in moderen society (I think).

I guess all I really want at this time is to work hard on the things I love and to gain results in the near future, I know how to do that simply using my resources around me and practice practice practice.

Thats it for now but I will update soon when the time comes probably my birthday :)

I'm out ...

Back to the start

2011-03-19T10:27:00.000-07:00

I feel somewhere along the line I may have done something wrong, or just did not see it coming.

My last blog entry was in August that is 7 months ago, the last 7 months have been nothing but a blur. September was the start of college and my gym instructors qualification, I moved home in November to Weymouth and I got a job at a gym in December which I still work for today.

So heres the outcome I am now a qualified gym instructor, I am now sitting a personal training course with all the knowledge freely available to me, I earn £7.50 an hour and average 12 hours a week. My fitness including strength and endurance is through the roof. My parkour and gymnastics is at a much higher level.

Yet I now feel in a position were I am rock bottom. My surrounding friends are slowly drifiting away, my relationship of 13 months came to an end a few weeks ago. I am going to be moving on my own to Poole and then Sydney.

Right now I feel very lost, everything I have wished for I have achieved yet I feel it aint as great as I had expected. I make lots of money which most of I save towards Sydney, my wriitng skills have improved dramaticlly.

Somehow I am lonely I don't know why :/
I didnt think this would happen, I suppose I miss Rebekah, I'm sad I couldn't make it work. I'm sad my friends are drifitng away and those funn times of parkour a few summers back are just memories.

Parkour sticks with me it has grown a large importance in my life, I just can't explain this feeling of lonliness, it is all happening to fast I do kinda miss my life a year ago I dont care that I didnt have as much money or wasnt as strong I was happy and I had company.

I just don't know what is going on right now :/

Thats Life

2010-08-24T04:34:00.000-07:00

For most of my teenage years I always had a picture of how I seen myself later on. I know that alot of people have done the same thing, Ego its the way we picture ourselves, happy, strong and at ease. It gives our lives reassurances, it motivates us to wanna do good . . . . . . . . . . . . . . or bad . . .

Many can say growing up can be an emotional roller coaster your crying your don't know why, your laughing you don't know why. You make plans you change them, you fall in love, you experiance a sense of disapointment again and again. You fall down, you pick yourself up, you try again. Try harder, be different, you change again. I say it was all an experiance, an experiance worth living; I see myself upset at one point in the past knowing now I may have missed something more important something that was worth the energy other than what I was upset about to begin with.

I have always had dreams of how I wished to be but like all thinks reality changes so does my dreams. I think of ways to better myself, ways to improve, be a better man be stronger and be knowledgable.

I look back on the past and I see the moments of triumpth, I look back and I see the moments of downfall. Funny I should say I wouldnt take it back ever. I look back and smile.

The irony in all this, I use the word ironic like I know what it means :S.

The point no matter what the downfall, the mistakes, the mishaps and the uncertainty my intentions were good willed sometimes very misunderstood by mostly myseld as well as others. All those moments have taken me to this day Today!

Here now the present moment I hold close to my heart knowing that I want something, something I have chosen to be. Something I smile upon knowing that sense of achievement I have come across more than many a time in the last 3 years.

I am also familiar with the term "If you can't live without it you cannot live with it." A saying my dad has said to me many times before. 2010 has been a year where I have watched myself grow, same with 2009 and 2008 right back till 1992. I have aimed high and have set to acheieve my dreams, and slolwy over time I have watched myself grow into the very thing I pictured all those years ago.

My reality changes as so do my dreams. In a way they grow in sync with one another, circumstances change, ideas change, the people you meet change, those you love change like I have. One thing I do find amusing thought is that my achievements have become reality, its just funny how different they become.

There is having a dream and there is living the dream.

Here is one term I shall always live by :) . . .

税关 - Know thy self.

I am proud of what I have become, I am proud of who I am.

One secret to achieiving

2010-07-16T15:55:00.000-07:00

I have recently realised through my own experiance I kinda see it as common knowledge. There has been times I sat back to wait for an oppertunity putting into trust that the right time will come when I am to act.

However I have realised you cant always just sit back and wait some oppertuities aint all that easy to come across some require absoulte effort and may require one to go through all hell just get to it.

For me I say the key for me to towards my so called future is there, to gain experiance I have to act now not wait for the "right time" I am not fortune teller I don't know these things.

All I can say is for me to come the slightest bit close with anything I want to achieve.

Heres an example I wanna gain acting experiance fuck sitting down waiting for the oppertunity I'll get my ass up and go to a thearte so I gain the slightest bit of knowledge of where to start.

I wanna improve in screen writing, I feel that I have to practice and practice some more and work on my writing. Starting now. Ideas come and go over time but working at it could help achieve.

Progression in Parkour is simple practice and hard work through that experiance have I realised that the same principle follows with everything else. So my lesson to myself is to achieve my dreams to become the future I have to jump at the resources and start now ! :)

I am ready

2010-06-28T14:44:00.000-07:00

Whatever may have been or should have been at this point is irrelevant, this is what is happening I take responsibility if the choices I have made and will make.

I feel ready now and decide I will become professional, I don't know roughly how but I know were to go...

London is where I feel I should go to film and to make the leap forward to becoming professional. Outside my doorstep is where it begins the choices I make, the places I go I honestly feel the time has come and I will go for it accepting whatever comes and whatever happens.

I know what I feel I must do I know what I shouldn't do.

I know I am my own inspiration, I know others play important roles in my personal growth. I continue to remain greatful and keep smart be positive.

As of now its nothing but effort and determination and reminding myself of why I am doing this.

Resources

2010-06-01T07:55:00.000-07:00

I always say that the key to progression is the use of resources, it ranges from a couple of rocks, some walls, an experiance indivdual. The list goes on forever, when wanting to achieve something or become someone I sometimes forget about the very surroundings I can take from and use for myself to learn from the simplests of books, college or just going out for a walk that carries some form of benefit.

Parkour has unlimted resources I find myself in an area that breaks me down, makes me feel like I can't handle the dangers. 15 minutes later and I'm flying across the place like theres no tomorrow, the strange lesson in this being I know a lot more and have gained more in 15 minutes than I would have in 15 days in previous years of my journey.

I know it's natrual to be afraid of a dense area of only railings with drops that range from 2 feet to 10 feet. This far in my Parkour "Journey" I know pretty well that its easily picked up. I may have been slow and unsure when trying new things or progressing say last year but one thing that stayed the same was my persistancy.

It doesn't matter if someone lands a jump first time and takes the other person 10 minutes of small progressional jumps. If anything I feel the person who takes longer may benefit because they gain strength and understanding of their body and themselves. 10 minutes later the once doubtful person is now equal to that of the one who completed the task 10 minutes before them.

What I have learnt this year is time is the root of all progression. It doesn't matter if it takes 1 year or 10 years as long as you made the most of that time during those year of years because once achieved you merely feel priviliaged by those years of bumps, scrapes and cuts.

Right now there is something I could say I couldn't do but if I dedicated an hour of my life to it I can promise by the end of that hour I would have achieved it and if not I would know where I stand, I would know more on solving the equation than I would sitting here guessing.

That pretty much is how I have been progression so much these last 3-4 months I use the time I have. I bless every minute of the time I spend learning and walking the planet. I won't lie I have my fair share of down time moments where I won't be training or doing Parkour I just sit around and recover.

As every passing day goes by I know more and more that all my hopes and dreams will become the reality that I live today because I have the time and I have the resources. I can become the very thing I dream of everyday because I try and I try, I expand and take in.

Moments like now were I sit and do my college work I don't doubt myself for a second because I get excited at the thought of being able to go out and make something of myself like I have for the last 3 years I only wish other people could see things the way I do so they knew that impossible is misunderstood term for difficult which is also misunderstood for "lack the use of resources and time."

A thing called reality

2010-05-16T08:07:00.000-07:00

I started my first day of filming and it was alright not amazing, my legs were not up to most of it but I managed to pull it off. However I realised I gotta work my legs get them nice and strong. So I am starting a better leg work out which should improve my vetical jump.

Upperbody is fine but my 180 cats are not that good and its all in the legs. My legs are strong but its a difficult set of muscles to get strong since they are the biggest.

So I plan on going all carbs, protien and fruit for the next couple of weeks plenty of Parkour through the week like I usaully do same old gymnastics.

But lots of leg conditioning starting from well

now :)

Growing up

2010-05-14T08:13:00.000-07:00

I start filming tomorrow, I have been training very hard alone, with company and alone some more :P. These days it doesn't make a difference that being said I don't take my friends and other company forgranted this time 2 years ago I surrounded myself by the strangest of people anything was better than nothing at the time.

Anyway I have nearly finished my first year in sports coaching and development in college and it has been fairly quick. I remember starting in September just ending a high on an amazing summer I had just met some great people during that period had a blast with my friends. The same friends I train with now, although the experiance has been quick a lot has happened.

I started out as a some what niave 17 year old who held my ambitions way up high, on top of that I was unsure of the competative surroundings uncertainty within myself. It was just before November that I decided I wanted to be in Urbanfreeflow, so I trained I traveled to Gymnastics alone and tryed hard I sometimes kept to myself.

I never really spoke to the guys at college I kept to myself with my ambitions running crazy in my mind of how I wished to be reminding myself that this will not be forever.

It was shortly after Christmas when I was given a weight vest that I realised how much I wanted things I also got a new camera and shortly after that bought myself a new lens. I filmed a video of my gymnastics in January and posted that on youtube for my friends and parkour associates across the country to see.

That same month I met a really nice girl which has been the first relationship since 2008 :S. Being with her showed me alot of things what it really means to care about someone have feelings and being committed to something. I learnt about balance in life living 2 lives but loving both as much as the other.

I remeber being niave and not really knowing anything about relationships and just jumping to an oppertunity letting everything plan itself out.

So as the new year went on I worked harder at what I wanted I got stronger, smarter and a lot more happier. Now it is nearly June and I am filming a video and shall send it off to Urbanfreeflow. My Parkour training and gymnastics the last month or so has been intense and finally after a year of remaining silent infront of the guys in College I decided to show my skills.

I kept myself cool knowing that what I have been doing has been the most amazing experiance of my life so far.

The people I have met in the last 9 months have really opened my eyes to life and I could not have planned any of this. I don't really plan things these days I just hold those who mean the most to me close by and treat them well as for everything else I let the mystery of life unfold in its own strange way :P.

What I want

2010-05-04T04:31:00.000-07:00

My training since my last entry has been an experiance. I train mostly alone but occasionally with my friends. I prefer training alone I seem more in sync with myself and its more peaceful.

My leg strength has improved, strength, physique. I do plan on making a sponsership video now that I have premier pro. I feel a slight hit of responsibility now that I want this. Unsure of where I will stand if I achieve this.

I won't get into great detail about what has been going on I know what I have been doing. Everything is progression, but now I stand to say I am done with this.

I am done with those moments I find myself sitting down doing nothing on my laptop, training is all good but thats all I want besides my family and friends. I don't know where I will stand in 3 months time hopefully not here on my laptop though. I don't want to come across extreme but I am done with this small portion of lazyness that dominates my life.

My bedroom is my place to sleep to learn, to practice, to work out doing nothing aint one of them.

Thats all I have to say :)
My video will be out shortly I hope all goes well, then again it aint about hope its about my effort held against my actions ;).

Bye x

The Adventure

2010-04-26T13:05:00.000-07:00

Today I started of in Weymouth doing Parkour alone around the church 2 walls, after about 40 minutes of enjoyable training and focus.

Then I was done and started to walk down radipole lake with the sun burning down on me which I ain't complaining about I love the sun. Towards KFC and I deicde at spare of the moment that I am going to poole to do Parkour.

At first in my head I laughed at the idea thinking it may be a tad late but soon I was serious and walked towards the train station. I was going over should I go to Bournemouth which I know better or shall I go Poole which I have only ever been to once very brifly last year.

So I buy my ticket and sit in the train I then wonder if this is a good idea, I don't even know the area I ain't meeting anyone so I have no one to take me for a tour and I could end up being really disappointed.

But once I stepped of the train I remebered one area close by from last year withing 2 minutes I was in the zone and I walked around the town in my head I kept asking which was should I go left, right, that way, down there?

Well I came across a bank checked the rails which were wobbly so I walked past and noticed these strange structured walls. This was the start oof it all, kong to cat, 9ft precision, running precision back the way, cat leap, 180 cat leap back.

The sweat was puring off me but I stop and move on I then come across a building with 2 even level walls a black railing and a lower wall, so I am there for 15odd minutes and I move on. I then come across a building next to a multi story car park which amazed me. A cat leap climb up onto the wall and to my left another cat leap but by this point I'm nearly 2 stories high I was just more concered I could get back down. So I do the second cat leap and climb up and look around the roof tops I was lucky it was 5pm at this point I could have gotten arrested or something :|.

So I make my way down and realise I got to precision onto a thin wall which is high I do it and make my way down. After all that I made my way to the town and on the train home.

I gained something from my little adventure, I like knowing that my level of skill means I can adapt to many types of structures across different towns.

I am up for it again I don't know where yet though I shall see.

Follow up on the last blog entry

2010-04-17T15:28:00.001-07:00

I mentioned how I found myself against an obstacle which I questioned and couldn't put myself across how I managed to do it.

This was put to the test yet again I took a 2 day visit to Corby where I soon realised my Parkour abailities and overall strength had took a turn and everything was simply effortless. By the end of the 2nd day I was bored and ready to return to the south which I have realised is my favourite part of Britain for Parkour reason being I live there :P.

However on the way back home I was on the tube and thought about the imax blue walls outside waterloo station. I stepped of the tube and decided I shall try the kong to cat which I find very large and dangerous if done incorrectly the drop is about 12 feet.

So I made my way to the ground floor walked there and was over whelemed with excitment and fear. I took a look at it and a local next to me was doing it with ease and was actually attempting to precision from the kong.

So after 5 minutes of back and forth in my mind I knew that I could do it so I went for it. I ran and dived for the kong by the time I was half way over I knew I was gonna make it but still scared thinking "What if I dont" So instead of a cat leap I bear hugged the wall cutting my forearms I clmibed up and looked back thinking. "Ok that was fun I'm trying that again.

So I did and I landed the cat leap just fine. I walked away towards waterloo on my way to Weymouth. What I felt before the kong in a strange way was fear for my own life I honestly felt I could die but deep inside I knew that this moment was soon to come. The question I asked was is such a thing worth it all, in a way it was death is not certain but injury is more than likley its a big drop. However the other option was doing it right and I made it fine.

I was right when I said before I am coming acorss these one chance only obstacles more and more :P its strange how life unfolds in this way. I asked myself what is round the corner well the Imax walls was one of them yet when I looked around I knew that this was a mere small obstacle. I still have alot of growing ahed of me, this was nothing more than the next step to my growth in Parkour. So I looked around at the next possible set of obstacles and I knew what work and effort has to be made to make such things possible.

I smile in excitment that I will return hopefully physciall prepared for it all. I may find myself returning to London on a regular occasion now.

The same night I went to gym and landed an inward wall sideflip which is a first. Again I am excited for what is to come I just make sure I am well prepared mentally and physically because nothing is every really easy. To me I see everything as a form of challenege that appears impossible or highly unlikely but time changes and so does the work that is put into it. Everything eventually becomes questionable, possible and do able. I once trained so that I could conquer the obstacle and become in some form of way enlightened by what I achieved and the feel of acceptance by the people I cared for.

However I never really felt that, everything was thoughts and no action. I felt furstated and unsure of what had to be done.
The last couple of months have changed now I know longer seek to conquer the obstacle I seek to over come my present state of mind, ideas coming to life. My body is the tool to achieveing my dreams, I think for a moment but in time I stand on my two foot and in a way I walk through my life. Moments later I have gone from one side to the other, what was once this is know that what was once a theory is now fact. What was once questioning is now understanding.

I no longer seek to conquer my fears nor the obstacle. I seek to embrace the ever learning journey that my life has become or always has been. I realise now that some things are part of a system that have to be understood such as gravity, power, speed, strength, grip, technique. Apart from that it is all a mix of randomness, coincidence, cause and effect.

I seek the knowledge that surrounds me in people, in walls and in myself. I dare not ask again "What is to come in the near future, what is next in my journey."

The answer is. I don't have a clue but far from nothing I tell you that:).

Expanding

2010-04-13T16:32:00.000-07:00

Training hard as I do and I feel a slight repatative routine going on so I focus on my local home area of Portland where I train at the school expanding my Parkour abilities. I suprise myself but I don't stop I work out, strecth and continue you on my progression. I cam across and obstacle which only seemed to happen in my mind but for the first time I decided to actually try it in a way I was joking but became serious shortly afterwards.

A kong precision that is 5 feet down and 7 feet across which is followed by a 7 foot cat leap. Within 4 attempts I had it and to my suprise I stopped to think this is happening more often, a thought is followed by preperation followed by actions followed by achievement. Again I don't stop there I continue on my journey of infinite growth and vision.

What awaits for across the corner ?

How many times will my thoughts lead to action and achievement? Time will tell I often wonder how far I can really go with this :).

Growing

2010-04-02T12:43:00.000-07:00

I am now 18 and I notice there is still alot to be learnt now that I have hit adulthood.

One important thing I learnt was prioritising (I should learn to spell :()
Getting the shit done so I can get on with other stuff. I am reffering to stuff that isnt really that enjoyable. Strecthing, college work and eating.

I am very active but as a teenager I was also veyr lazy leaving most things to the last minute. I realise now as a teenager it was almost acceptable but now I am an adult I choose to stop doing this. So now I strecth and condition the moment I get in before having dinner then cleaning up and then prehaps go out for a session or get a shower before sleeping. All those are important and as of now won't be leaving it to the last minute :P.

I have been exercising more and have gotten stronger my Parkour has improved and so has my tricks.

Parkour was amazing today I trained hard like I always do alone and then with company. I suprised myself as well as others but I smile inside knowing the bar has been raised.

With a life of routine and balance I am now becoming an adult and my life ahed of me becomes chaos no plans set in stone just an ever changing enviroment and state of mind.

I visited a Parkour spot I have not gone too since I moved here in 2008 and was shocked at how I moved round the place compared to the way I did 2 years ago. I didn't think to much about it I continued to suprise myself with my PArkour abailities I have built in 2 years.

What is to come in the next 2 years only I can figure that out based on my actions today.

The Future of Parkour of Life . .

2010-03-20T16:30:00.000-07:00

Well this blog is aimed at me and my plans for going to Austrailia.

I plan on going in 2 years, on my 20th birthday. Now I have been wanting to go for years now but now I am getting older I am becoming more realistic about it and thinking what needs to be done before hand.

I mentioned how I hit a wall in Parkour where I'm like ok now what, then came to the point where I knew risk factors and all that bollocks doesn't mean anything in Parkour when it comes to the moment itself. Well I was hit with another factor, I am not all that perfect.

Bad days come and go this was in my mind. I took a rest from Parkour for a few days I go gym and mentally I was tired and doubtful. So I make my way to the soft floor where its difficult to land anything it made me realise how much leg strength I can gain. I noticed I can train harder with my ankle weights, weight vest and other equipment. I hit a wall, I climb the wall, I fall down. I train and condition I become physically stronger and gain more mental abilities to over come the wall.

This applies to what I hope to achieve in the future, I am getting better at Parkour and Gymnastics but I can't stop hear this is still the early stages of my development. I am struck with the hard reality.
"I have a fair bit of free time on my hands don't waste it on fucking facebook :P."

The other simple logic applying a little more intensity to my work outs. Also don't back down on the night sessions by the Portland school, little pactice is better than none.

I have achieved a fair bit in the last month or so but I set the bar higher, I am preparing myself for whatever journeys await for me in Austrailia. I may seek commerial work, film, tv who knows it is silly to think at this point I can only really go with what I have now.

Parkour, gymnastics and other stuff like getting a small job to get some more money behind me and into my savers account. I sense how much further I can push with Parkour it's there staring me in the face.

In a way it stares all of us in the face, the ability to become great at what we wish to become. It takes hard training , dedication and time. It takes more things but anyway what I am getting at is tht after gymnastics I went to some party at this club I was there for 10 minutes and looked around I recognise alot of faces, some from college others from around town.

It made me think some of these guys are "dedicated athletes" some of their aims are high but this aint possible if they fuck around in clubs. I wasn't to bothered about what they did I just looked back at myself glad that I came to this club to remind myself what I want.

I already know what I want I noticed the bar has been raised for my expectations. I am learning and transforming into an adult as I know approach 18. It's a strange process. I don't know what else to say except I know what has to be done. :)

I hit a wall

2010-03-15T14:28:00.000-07:00

Well my previous post stated that my progression has been good and that I stop to think ok now what ??

Well Sunday had me thinking while training I practice familiar techniques I apply different methods of flow and movement. It works balance, creativity and co-ordination its also a form of exercise that builds several different muscle groups.

So I stop to look at other variations of familiar movements in a familiar area. The only different being the obstacle. The obstacle or obstacles in my case where at a level that has me question my own ability and I question the possibilties.

"If I fall I get hurt and it could be a nasty fall if I am not careful."

I have methods of over coming anxiety or fear I am getting good at it but I am also getting good at analysing risk factors and knowing what I can and cannot do.

The problem however is the emotion, even with my brain ticking off the potential risks if failure where to happen and ticking off the routine of my run, arm movement, timing of my legs, position for the next moevemnt it is the same routine I have under gone for nearly 3 years. It is burned into my mind.

So everything checks out but one thing stops me.

Stepping into uncharted territory, stepping out the comfort zone. My emotions don't like this survival instinct kicks in like a crazed man running inside my head. I'm not saying this is the first time it's happened, I'm saying its the first time it's happened without safe practice or progression towards it.

So I take this feeling on board everything checks out but this overall emotional out burst of uncertainty. So now I am thinking now that I have witnessed a small taste of over coming such a thing what must be done to overcome the more dangerous of obstacles when injury is almost certain if I fall.

Well I guess its all down to trusting myself, when I am moving nothing ever seems real except the moment and obstacle itself. It is just me and the obstacle(s) I don't feel fear I feel a sense of connection with myself and my oposing obstacle.

Uncertainty is saying that something cannot be done, applying effort pushing past mental barriars show that such a thing is indeed possible and likely. Before long I notice effect put into place, at that point and look back at the outcome.

I was once there but now I am here and back there being here through that route was not possible yet I have proven that theory obsolete because I am now here at this moment in time.

So what I am trying to say is physically alot of work has to be done but that is common knowlegde to any traceur of freerunner like myself.

What takes some thinking for myself is realising that I know nothing at all but by admitting that I open the door to the fact I can learn everything out their by leaping forward into the uncertainty of my so called fate. The outcome of every calculated guess, precaution and sense of purpose all jumbled together while I am in mid flight in the realm of unknown. At that point everything means nothing and at that point nothing means absolutly everything.

So I may find myself standing infront of an obstacle that I have never attempted before a possible large kong to cat, cat pass precision or large precision bound. I'll stand there and openly admit that I havnt got a clue what may happen, just a familiar mental vision that my brain has created for my own reassurance. So that I know roughly what I want to do, but nothing will ever feel the same as the moment itself.

I know for a fact I will be standing infront of an impossible obstacle soon, I know my brain will be going crazy projecting every bad thought it has to offer. I also know that I will remain completly blank knowing that the realm of possibility is forever changing because I am forever pushing the boundary..

What comes next . . .

2010-03-13T09:07:00.001-08:00

These 2 weeks have been great I trained hard like I said I would, I filmed lots of footage and posted some videos on youtube :).

As of now I am in bournemouth and its been wonderful, now I stop to think, what next?

Well right now I feel like doing the same thing as I did the previous 2 weeks, I know the next 2 weeks will be different from the previous 2 weeks.

What I feel is important right now is preperation, and focus. As the weeks go on I will change as my methods of training change, I will never really know how the future turns out, I just keep strong and keep trying and go with what happens.

In 2 weeks time I will be 18, but to be honest thats the last thing on my mind right now. As of now everything sees blank all I can go on is the present moment in time.

Coming to terms

2010-03-04T16:38:00.000-08:00

Today I had a night session with the guys. My shoes are on the verge of death but I have ordered two new pairs, I can't seem to wear my k swiss anymore even though they are sweet shoes. I just don't feel anything so I always wear Feiyues which are just average but I feel everything with them on, however they have a lifespan of over a month tops.

Anyway tonights session had me thinking, the realm of possibility like my previous post comes with effort, determination and love. I find myself growing, I find my surroundings change as I do. So I begin to think of life from outside of Parkour, is it what I want?

Parkour can be a strange thing it clouds the past and the future. The future seems to far away to even think about and the past appears to distant to consider looking back on. All that I am aware of is the present moment in time. The only future I consider is the pre planned route that I am about to take the only past I think is the work and effort that has led to this exact moment.

My progression has shown me that there is no hope in setting a plan because no matter how it turns out even if its the way you want it to turn out the outcome will be like nothing you ever imagine. It's like thinking of a colour you have never seen before.

So what am I coming to terms with?

Well I would say that I am coming to terms with that I am futureless up until the present time. There is nothing but now, my actions now will build upto the soon moment in the futre that will soon become the present.

I have come to terms with the fact that nothing is what it ever seems. A thing I have said to myself before on several occasions which seems relevent to say now :P

"There is more that meets the I." :P

Realm of Possibility

2010-03-02T04:05:00.000-08:00

The two weeks has began, the weather has been sweet still is today but I'm tired :(.

My last few days of training have made me realise that all is possible when you try it I know that might seem like commen knowledge but I feel deep in my mind. It makes sense that with the right attitude, love, determination, respect I can achieve anything.

Before hand I always seen it as if something was not do able I would work out or condition till I was strong enough to do it which did wor but there was more too it than just that. I soon relaised there is also the technique it self that must be practiced but again still something was missing.

Only recently I have realised it is the feeling the love the passion for what I do. When I move I am not thinking that I won't make this or that this cannot be done. Instead I think this is everything I have ever wanted, this is my personal goal, everything I have ever achieved in my life has led to this moment in time, I take a moment to breathe and a second to smile :).

I work out because a high level of stength on all different types of muscle groups are required, I eat healthy because it contains vitiamins and minerals that my body needs to use to rebuild my muscles. I do Parkour because I love to move, I love to grow and watch the world change as I do. Parkour is a form of getting from A to B for a purpose, that purpose is the reason why we train as hard as we do. Parkour for me gets me from A to B, the A is the day I was born the B is the day I die. Between that is all those people I will meet, the locations I travel too, the things I learn. The time I learn more and more about my very existance. :)

Plan ahed

2010-02-27T12:18:00.000-08:00

Well in College we have 2 weeks work experiance, i managed to contact a friend so I working at the local trampoline club I used to go to last year, and I smile at the thought I am doing 3 hours a day for 3 days a week. I have myself alot of freetime and I also get to bounce for free ;).

One reason I stopped going was because I owed money I didn't feel I owed. So I have myself alot of freetime over the next 2 weeks. It is going to be March not the most amazing of months but better than the last 3 monts lol.

So yeah I'll be training during that precious 2 week break. I'll push it abit I suppose, I tend to do that every session now. I set myself a goal or work the repetition to maintain skill level.

One skill I feel to work is the most basic of skills, running jump from 1 foot on flat surface. I'll explain in detail ;).

I suck when it comes to jumping of 1 foot on a flat surface I actually do a 2 foot jump from standing or walk in. With the 1 foot I find it of balance and strange, with a step up no problem what so ever. Yehh so working on this will make me happy applying more strength the muscles located round the calfs and hamstrings that can improve running cat leaps, running 1 foot precisions. Help me towards though huge gaps I came across in Derby.

Most importantly its for the balance and skill. I see people jump 1 footed from a flat surface and have great position when going over a wall , (maintaining the balance between hight and distance :P.) It will come with practice.

I also worked on techniques like rolling of a high surface so that I land on ground level on my feet I seen Daniel Ilabaca do it in a vid and tried it out for myself, it looks cool it certainly feels cool :P.

I did a double kong on 2 rails, which was the first for me I feel my upperbody improve so I plan to take it up a notch with them with bigger ones during the 2 weeks. I havnt been to the 180 cat location in sometime either since the autum. I plan to return to that as there is something I wanna try which I never had the balls for when I was last there. (180 cat precision) landing on a wall with 5-6 foot drop either side.

Anyway yehh thats the plan I have also been filming so I shall film this lot too I pray for dry weather :)

x

Half term training

2010-02-22T06:39:00.000-08:00

Well it has been half term and the weather has been amazing on more than one occasion, one day I found myself training topless at one point :|.

The kong to handstand I mentioned in a previous blog I manage to land the other day also I have done some double kongs outside and worked on other chain movements. Can't really get into detail I'll just film it. This week I had my first taste of summer like weather and my training in the wet weather has only made me on focused on attempting the more difficult.

As for gymnastics its really good now, I wanna move on to some more difficult moves namly palm flip, gainer, 2 step wallflip and cork screw.

Hope the weather improves now we approach March, not that it really matters I can train fine either way just the rain holds me back abit when trying the more technichal movements that require a dry surface :P.

Valentines day training

2010-02-16T05:19:00.000-08:00

Valentines day was sunny and warm I was training in a short sleeved shirt most of the day. I have progressed alot and I wish I had filmed most of todays session.

June is less than 5 months away and I am seriously thinking of going 100% for this sponsership. I have suprised myself on every turn. As for my gymnastics I have slacked a little bit my expectations are getting way to high and I am not going to reach my goals if I don't make the time in the gym as well :P.

All that I am thinking of now is really making better use of my time. The winter was cold but I still got through it, now that the spring is coming in I realise how much more time I have to work with everything.

I stopped to think how good things are in my life emotionally, I am happy with the friends and family I have but I am happy with what I have achieved myself. There is still so much out there I wish to achieve but I smile knowing that I all that can be done I just gotta remind myself of all that.

The last 5 months have been intresting but I feel overwhelmed with excitment of what is to come. What I wish to accomplish in my life.

New things I have came across

2010-02-12T12:29:00.000-08:00

Well leg is all good and I been doing Parkour with friends and alone. I was out today on my own I went to Morrisons subway which was fun same stuff really but just testing how everything is working plus I was wearing my feyiues so I couldn't do any major big stuff otherwise they would get destroyed.

Then I went to the chursh two walls. I got a sense for progression when I landed the kong precision first time unlike in the past when it takes 4-5 attempts. After that I went for the kong to handstand but just didn't have the strength to support my whole weight which made me smile and think ok work out more on those arms ;).

Recently I have felt myself more at ease with the bigger stuff I am getting stronger I am getting faster I have an eye for improvment if I am not satisfied with what I am doing. I was in Derby last week and I must say that was good fun I kinda stopped after about 3 hours then my hands got cold :(.

That being said it was a good session but only made me wanna try harder and give me a rough idea of what I wanna achieve in the near future :).

Well I keep on trying and I will get there with practice the spring is coming and I look forward to it also I shall be 18 in 2 months :P.

Anyway I'm gonna work out now I ain't training tomorrow so I wont worry about how hard I push myself :).

Recovery

2010-02-03T23:45:00.000-08:00

The back of my right leg has been hurting since mid January. It is like a burning sensaton running down my hamstring, I havn't properly rested it until now. I havn't done any Parkour since Monday and now it's Thursday I can feel it go away these things just take time.

However I still be working out to keep my legs nice and strong :P.

Anyway hopefully these goes away soon. :)

My Inspiration

2010-01-25T11:15:00.000-08:00

We are all inspired by others, those more experianced than ourselves those who appear in control and those more knowledgable than ourselfes.

I follow those who I see as the above, I train similar to them however I get so into my own way I forget to keep myself open to all the other methods.

Daniel Ilabaca is a good example I see his videos and I am always taken away by it, he is still human but he is a fantastic human being. I watch his Parkour I never met the guy so I can only assume alongside my own training.

I know myself pretty well in terms of my training I know what works, I know what can help me more, watching Daniel Ilabca gives me the extra push to help myself more to become more experiances, knowledgable and in control.

Training is well but I see what can be improved, what can be worked on, what can be better. Its a forever routine that dominates my life that I live by.

To put it simple I want to to find put aside the equations. Rather than be like hmm I should condition more simply go for it anyway whilst changing methods of training ect.

I developed a more unique and better method of working out but I think its also important that I get out there with my Parkour and put aside the "possibilities and what ifs."

Daniel Ilabaca being one of the insiprations has shown me that theres more to it than lots of training and conditioning you simply have to challenge the unlikely and make it possible. I know myself I know what I want to achieve I know roughly what I can do for that to be achieved just gotta do it :)

My ambition

2010-01-18T11:12:00.000-08:00

I been thinking of stuff mostly the previous year and what it has meant to me. 2009 has been an important year and a very intresting year, I met people who I never though I would see again, I met old friends and made new friends.

That being said the new friend I made last year was me, I became my own friend I forgave the mistakes I made in the past and simply got on with it, I worked my way through progression. Finding new ways to improve my Parkour, gymnastics and my perception on life.

What I can say is my life is wonderful and I have seen some truly wonderful things, my life is one big inspirtation. I sometimes think of people like myself 100 years ago those who went for walks by the sea and those who pushed themselves to achieve there dreams.

Well I cannot waste this time there is so many things I wish to achieve, it takes the effort.

Return of the volgs

2010-01-16T14:50:00.000-08:00

I filmed day 5 which went good the new wide angle lens works brilliant.

Anyway Ive been working out hard but need to work harder :P

Well I'll update :)

New year

2009-12-31T18:40:00.000-08:00

Ok its 2010.

I guess its kinda silly to start a new years resoultion luckily for me I decided to start my so called resolution about 3 days ago ;).

It's not really a new years resolution it just happened to be a cioncidence that this commitment occured 3 days before new year.

Anyway I was at my uncles house were everyone was at in his back garden you can see all of Portland lite up I sat and looked at the shining town for about 20 minutes. In 2007 I was 15 years old I sat there thinking about what I am going to do with my life when I move to Weymouth which was in June 2008. I smiled at the fact it has been 2 years since that day and I am proud at what I have achieved so far some things didnt plan out as I hoped for all the right reasons, my ignorance as a 16 year old was my major downfall.

As I get older I become more aware of what person I am becoming, I always feel I wont live to be an old person because from a fairly young aged I have disciplined myself in Parkour and Gymnastics I have continuoesly strayed away from relationships, alchohol and drugs. I have realised the last couple of days what I have achieved, how I did that and what it will take to achieve this in the future.

Right now I know what needs to be done to go beyond what level I am at now. I realise there is alot that I need to put aside and leave so that I can achieve what is personal to me.

I won't lie I see myself in the future as possibly someone successful who connects with people on a deep level with my writing and my Parkour. However most of those feelings were not healthy they were mere egotistic thoughts for my own satisfaction.

The truth is I don't have a clue what is going to happen I always felt I wont live a long life but I can never know the universe works in strange ways I could die tomorrow no matter what the risk factor be it is not inevitable.

I have a rough idea of what I want...... For now.

Not nessecerily what I may want in 10 years time or 20 years time. I am involved with Parkour and gymnastics as well as screen writing. For the first time in my life I am saying I will do what ever it takes to achieve my dreams, my life.

I know what it takes and I can't let simple things like laziness get in my way because as active as I may be I am also one lazy bastard when it comes to getting out of bed :P.

I know what I want for the time being I treat everyday as a blessing being that it is possible I have the resources, the family, the friends, the inspirations and hopefully the right heart. :)

Intenisty + overload

2009-12-31T10:44:00.001-08:00

Well I have been working out with my weight vest for the last 3 days and noticed that routine only goes so far. After a certain time I felt myself straying away from the set amount and instead just kept doing random sets and reps.

It is known as intensity, when working the reps and sets pushing myself beyond anything from an extra 10 second hold or extra 5 reps with this weight vest seems to make the difference. This being overload.

The question is will this improve my strength now that I have additional weight weighing me down, how hard will I need to work to achieve the level I wish to gain.

What is to come of the following 3 months until I become 18.

Well that being said I know inmy head what I wish to achieve that being a new level of strength so that the more complicated levels of moevment in parkour become second nature, as the spring becomes closer I can practice the movements more and more with endless amounts of variation.

The same applyies with gymnastics how much will I need to push myself to achieve the level I wish to reach.

My last question I leave for this year is..

How much is to much.... is there such a thing ?

Improvement

2009-12-29T09:55:00.000-08:00

I always thought that I was strong and in a way I am but compared to the pros I am more of a ametur. I noticed this when I was filming myself doing some handstand stuff like planches and handstand push ups.

What I noticed was that my body was struggling to maintain my body weight. So I realised that I am gonna be using my weight vest everytime I workout now :).

Anyway also need to improve strength I might include weights but I like my work outs free :P.

New year

2009-12-26T18:03:00.000-08:00

One thing I have looked at and slapped myself when I realised. Why oh why did I name my blog Parkour and Gymnastics........ 2009. I guess I never thought I would get this far :P. Well it will be 2010 in 4 days time I'll try change the blog name but if not ah well. Anyway for christmas I got an expensive video camera^_^, song vagus editing software and also a weight vest which weighs 20kg and can be changed.

The weight vest is going to be important and hopefully will improve my strength way more!
As for the camera filming will commence and horray no more windows movie maker. I hope to training real hard as always but taking further now that we reach the spring :).

Parkour training, Gymnastics training Upcoming London Jam

2009-12-19T11:31:00.000-08:00

This week I started training more, I also started doing my tricks on soft floor which has no jump and sinks your power. I worked my legs on wednesday then Gymnastics thursday in Rossmore. My tricks on the floor are better applying correct techniques and what not but that is it till January :S.

I was training today with Matt and it was really good precisions are better I also done a kong precision which has a big drop on the other side which had me scared at first. However I done it and it was really good I'm going there tomorrow if the weather is good :).

We also went to Portland school in the dark with little light but I adapted towards it. Anyway London session is less than a week I hope all goes well :)

Reality Check

2009-12-09T11:25:00.001-08:00

I watched a video today and it was some guys from London such as philly D and others and I was like what the fuck !!. Made me realise how crazy you gotta be to do such stuff how much effort you need to put in.

I know the weather hasnt been brilliant but its the last excuse I'm gonna use. Truth be told I up for trying all this stuff but I'll approach it in the right way last thing I want to happen is to get injured. For me to progress to that level I have to be in a new area or comfront myself with new obstacles everyday. London is a big place however Weymouth is not as big. That being said I still have alot of resources I'm thinking tha I gotta expand my potencil more to achieve this and also it looks so damn fun :).

Visual preperation

2009-12-07T08:03:00.000-08:00

I remeber at th start of my second college year early September of this year as part of a team building exercise we were told about visual learning. I listened but didn't really take much of it in but it wasn't till gymnastics last night when I realised how important visual imagery is.

My last few gymnastics session were about a week and a half ago and I must say the performance in them were bad. After that the following sessions I didn't go to I just worked out indoors or outdoors and pushed my Parkour abilities. At the same time I was thinking in my head of my gymnastics, going over the techniques in my mind over and over again, visualising the movements very carfully. Whilst at the same time I was trainign very hard and in the short time have become stronger, my attitude towards logic and effort may have also played an important role.

So I went to gymnastics last night and everything was fresh in my mind as if I had'nt lost anything. I pulled of a cyclone of a block onto floor and landed it first time, my back tucks were the way I wanted them. I was doing no legged press ups and one armed chin ups. I must say I'm glad I missed those sessions it gave me time to think, time to train and time visualise everything I wanted to achieve.

I still got alot of stuff to work, I can still get stronger.

The Logic

2009-12-05T15:28:00.000-08:00

Well it has been nearly 2 weeks since my last post, what can I say I discovered more potencil out of myself by making the effort rather than shuffle my way through to reassure myself. I take a risk which has room for error however by putting in the effort I know more specifically about where I go wrong if I fail.

I'm also aware what creativity can be acheieved in what first appeard as a crap place to train. It was actually where I identified the difference between Parkour movements which are vital to ones movement and Parkour movements which are used to expand ones abaility but is not primariliy based on fluent movement. I don't mean Parkour and Freerunning complex but rather the difference between moving with the brain and moving with the soul.

Like a kong precision which requires balance, of power strength and speed, which is all part of calculations and accuracy. Which may use more energy than required compared to other movements. However like my session at the train station bypass bridge which is about 3 stories high with alot of rails and balconeys, the movement came from the soul. I guess I could call it the real logic to Parkour, movement of ones soul moving with their heart connection with the surroundings. This isn't the first this has happened I get this alot but this is the first that I have had to use a different slightly more cautious method of movement. It is fairly high but I become more confident in the enviroment and within 30 minutes my movement down the 3 story staires and blaconeys, became faster of that who walked down them :P.

The effort I have achieved in my Parkour because I become more aware of my weakness knowing I tried my hardest, the same should be down with my Gymnastics.

Focus

2009-11-20T15:43:00.000-08:00

I was training last night and also went gymnastics there was this candian guy there and we had a conversation on progression. Then I was thinking about mental barriers that prevent me from actually achieveing what I want. So after thinking you know just do it I kinda thought ha :P I have been making things a tad more complicated than what they were.

Also today I was training after college but went to a presentation at the college later that night were this guy who is awsome at rock climbing. Hes been on top gear and such stuff. From the look of his vids he is an amazing athlete his stories I felt I could relate to.

After the presentation everybody left but I went up to him and said.
"Your life story is inspiring." I told him about my parkour and he was like thats awsome man.
We spoke for about 20 minutes straight it got to the point where I said I often feel like I'm living a double life one being my college life the other being the person I become when I do parkour or gymnastics.

He said to me by living our everyday lives we become more more keen to wanna be the other person in our life. Like if I done parkour 24/7 being that person I would then just grow apart from it.

Another subject we hit on was how I often felt uneasy when a crowd of people walked past who would mock me, put me down or doubt me in a way.

He said something to me which I'll try not to forget. He said.
"When you have your thoughts focused on something else like what people say you are not concentrating. Having your mind wander off being self concious can be very bad.
By fully concentrating on what your doing nothing else matters, none of it means anything because as of that moment it is completely irrelevant to what other people think.

I must say I will remeber that one :)

I'll update next week training is going good.

Parkour update and Austrailia

2009-11-14T09:21:00.001-08:00

The weather hasnt been brilliant but I have been training good mostly working out. Indoors I got low to high level double kong and ot ma tricks good to.

I'm not liking the winter though its getting me down so I decided to go austrailia when I'm 19 which is in 18 months time I have £1800 saved up and hope to have about £8000-£10,000 saved up by then.

Something about it makes me wanna move their. Plus I got family there I havnt met so see how it goes. Will be even better if I'm in urbanfreeflow when I join :).

Was it worth it ?

2009-11-02T13:11:00.000-08:00

Ok just a quick update before I get into what I wanna say.

I was in Bournemouth on halloween and it was awsome !
It was intense it was progressive and it was fun, so much happened I cannot explain but it was real fun.
That night I stayed at Matts for halloween in Bournemouth it was fun, the next day we went gym and I learnt some important things.

First of doing walk in side flips I figured that by throwing my hips and ass up I get much more height and better control :).
Also I got my back tucks all good even though Im worried I may fall back on the old technique I hope not. But I got a feel for the right way.

What I wanted to say for today was that I was extremely tired everything hurt I was in Drchester and I just couldnt seem to move properly at all. So it gets to a point I do a handstand on a wall and then go into a 1 hand and I hold it well but I lose balance and my shin scrapes of the wall. The cut isnt deep but it is such a long cut it goes all the way down my shin.

The question is was it worth it?

Yeah it was :)

However if I'm tired in furture I'll call it a day ;).

Yeovil

2009-10-30T05:28:00.000-07:00

Well yesterday I went to Yeovil. In Bournemouth about 2 weeks ago I met a guy from Yeovil who asked me to come over at soem point so eventually I found the time to go. It was an awsome day the weather was good and within 20 minutes I just pushed myself. I landed kong precisions I never thought I could manage, 180 cats, rail precisions and other stuff I just didn't know I could do.

I also landed my first double kong outside so I have one to try in Weymouth today but this one is alot bigger :P.

A gym session followed towards the end of the night which was good I liked the gym sprung floor bars ect. I was mega tired by this point I had been training for 6 hours.

My flicks are good my fronts are good just the backs that I really wanna get. I land on my feet fine I get good height but I wanna pull it of properly and I kinda know how to now it's just last night I was way to beat up to attempt it.

Jump up straight with legs straight, chest up with shoulds pulling back, push hips up and once legs get to head height tuck in. Hope I can get that right may take a couple of weeks ;).

The return trip

2009-10-27T12:25:00.000-07:00

Last couple of days I have been in Corby, Derby and Lecister.

Now Corby has been good been out there with the locals and done Parkour I landed my first kong precision on a rail :). I also started taking things up a notch which was a good experiance. I got new shoes K swiss si 18 these are just as good as Kalenji success but look better. On the way to Derby me and Michael got of at lecister due to a change over which was a 50 minute wait but hey the sun was out and I had'nt done Parkour in lecister in nearly 2 years so I thought I would kill some time.

Now this was really intresting because 2007 was a while back and obviously I am alot more experianced now than I was then so it was kinda change but cool going back to something I left 2 years ago and doing it again but with my abailities today. In a way it was like communicating with myself through movement. But before long we had to make our way back to the station and off to Derby. Derby was good I still hadnt got used to the k swiss and it was wet and I was being abit unsure of everything but within 15 minutes I got over myself.

I met damien walters that same day who gave me some advice on my tricks which is rather appreciated, good gym session to. My last full day in Corby I was really unsure about things I dunno why was it cause my body was aching or was it just something else. It kinda irritates me but I somehow found it in me to kinda break past that uncertainty and now I just wanna try these much more difficult and technical things that have had me unsure for a longtime.

I enjoyed the adrenaline rush of doing something risky. Now back in Weymouth it's back to good old training (new training) which is really handy and helpful. Theres some things that are risky but possible that I kinda look forward to trying :).

Anyway it was good going to those places. It was a return journey to old memories and times, but then came new places, new experiances and then finally the return trip home.

By the way I spelled Leicester wrong several times and probs even then :/

Power (SpeedxStrength)

2009-10-18T13:57:00.000-07:00

Last couple of nights have been good trying to figure things out like on a technical level. Today I found myself at a even level kong precision, or cat pass precision whatever you wanna call it. So the run up is short so I'm trying to figure out how to make it with such crappy run up I mean I have done this before but there must be something to it so that I can hit this everytime and start thinking of clearing it.

So I realised I should work on power, meaning building a fast run up with only like 5 step run up. I gave it a try and it is kinda working. Gonna kinda work with this see where it goes.

Another thing I got loads of things I wanna work on, Yeah I'm working out more to build strength. But to be fair I kinda felt like I was thinking to much about things by the end of the day I was up asda with a friend and found myself trying new things working in one area by the end of the small session I was like yeah this suits me better.

So sure its good to work out and improve overall strength but repeating the same shit gets boring. There are some things I gotta learn but also I wanna go out there and find new things try new things it seems to have a more progressive feel to it.

Plus even in the same areas I see new things to try so I'm gonna work my way up to them :). Push the fear to one side see what we get :)

From the ground up

2009-10-16T12:09:00.000-07:00

Well 8 months to go, I've started working out more on my legs, one exercise which is pretty intense is walking in squat position up a flight of 12 staires side ways then back down the staires then again but the other side. Then I try it walking straigh up the staires when I do this my thighs feel like they are burning but it's working abit. With the Parkour its going good but the conditioning is my main priority.

I have also started using the plank work out which can be a killer on the abs and shoulders but whatever helps tbh.

Urbanfreeflow

2009-10-14T23:56:00.000-07:00

Well I was in bournemouth on saturday with matt then we met up with about 15 other guys from portsmouth, bournemouth, southampton and yeovil. Now the session was awsome 2 guys who were sponsered athletes of urbanfreeflow where there and I was just amazed at how good they really were at their Parkour, just there style of jumping, flipping and balance.

So after that I went back with Matt since I was staying over his we went out training and found some cool areas. Since then I have been determind to become sponsered by urbanfreeflow I know how hard its gonna be but I also know its possible. It's Thursday now and I have been training for like 4 days straight, Ive given myself till June 2010 so thats about 7 months.

Well see what happens I'll update more on how training is going.

Progress but dunno how :S

2009-10-06T15:09:00.000-07:00

I had a small parkour session on my own today before going gym.

The parkour session was fun located in an area with not alot there few rails and walls ect but I was amused for 20 minutes. I'm like yeah this whole new approach to Parkour is so fun I'm liking it. I'ts not a case of what I'm doing its about how I do it and why I do it.

Due to the knowledge of the human body over the last couple of months I focus more on repition rather than getting something right the first time. If it takes 10 times or a 100 well then I gained something from it =D.

So yer anyway I forgot to mention I landed on my arse which hurts now but all good ;).

So anyway gymnastics I must say the increase in conditioning and practice has payed off but I don't know how :s. I'm working out more on my legs and I can feel it working for sure my back tuck height is high :).

Also the gymnastic stuff I have worked on over the last 2 weeks.
First I started on what I called flick control.

Now flick control is the ability in controlling say a back handspring/back flick. Due to the practice I developed the right leaning technique which has made it 100x easier I can pretty much do it from squat position. Then the week after which I started on sunday I call tuck control.

Tuck control is having the ability and co-ordination to tuch as tight as I need to and also knowing when to untuck. So I have my new strength to take me up along with the right technique and confidence to execute it properly followed with the right control and co-ordination to finish it off.

Now I have just started getting side flips from standing and using this whole tuck control thing it has helped me so much.

Whoever reads this probably won't have a clue what I'm talking about the point is it makes sense to me and I'll probably have ti explain in person in order for it to make sense.

Anyway it has been an awsome session the new approach at Parkour has also been fun. So from this point on its trying harder and go beyound what I imagine. I have in my head a fairly brief idea of where I wanna be so I'll do what it takes to get there :)

Couple of days

2009-10-05T14:17:00.000-07:00

Over the last couple of days me and maxx went out doing more parkour in a very unfamilar area but within 20 minutes we got the hang of it. Some school on portland, I woke up the next day and my hamstrings had seized up abit shows the hard work ;).

So yer then there was gymnastics on sunday that too was also good new things here and there.

But today I done nothing had college then just went home kinda lazy day but then about 30 minutes ago I just realised in reality what I really wanna achieve and I was just went from being lazy to like na I can do this. So gonna work out :P.

Muscle building and fluent Parkour

2009-09-30T13:03:00.000-07:00

So I'm out with a friend today and I decide to teach him a few things when it comes to Parkour however I deicded I was gonna teach myself at the same time :S.

Learn through teaching theory if you will.

So we start of at a basic area now I have been curious to why certain movements have recently becomed laboured at first I thought it was lack of practice with the specific movement. However I realised that the socialising I have been doing over the last week or so has hindered my performance which made me think.

So I decided to ditch the social parkour thing and stick to the independant training work which I enjoy. So anyway I'm with my friend and we start working on small Parkour moves, I start applying balance work which is mostly all on my legs and feet.

So shortly afterwards we try making it a little bit more difficult and I would say it wasn't even 20 minutes and my legs were aching abit. But the cool thing I noticed was that through doing small little moves continuoesly and making more obstacles challenging that the overall jump was easy and required less effort compared to the labouris jumps early that day.

So yer it was effective, and in some ways progressive.

System

2009-09-27T16:05:00.000-07:00

Over the week I have been alot of arm work, I have been doing dive hanstands onto walls and I feel myself push bigger gaps. I also found myself managing movements better than I did 2 months earlier. Like without even having to practice that specific movement I still found myself able to do it through the practice and understanding of all the other parkour stuff i was doing during that time :).

I also destroyed my legs Friday night through continuoes leg conditioning which was good :P. I keep on taking it up a notch with the leg work outs. I had gymnastics today alot happened but it was good I shal start filming some more stuff towards the end of this year.

Week update

2009-09-22T23:36:00.000-07:00

Well this week has been a good one college has been very practicle. Parkour has been awsome training hard and trying new things. Then working on bigger double kongs in the gym.

Working on mostly precision work I have also been working out alot upperbody and abs. With seperate nights dedicated to my legs :).

As for my gymnastics that is going good as well working on standing side flips of stuff, my back tucks are getting much higher and I also tried doing an inward wall side last night which went ok I guess :P.

Anyway It's been real fun gonna push it a little more :).

Parkour session and a walk

2009-09-12T13:46:00.000-07:00

Today was the first Parkour session I had on my own in about 3 weeks. The last month or so have been so intense with other people being out I must admit the company was good so much was being done.

But it was nice to be alone for once really get into sync with my own state of mind. When I am alone Parkour is a more deeper sense of well being for me. I warm up, I stretch and then I begin my session, I change my shoes from skater shoes to my almighty Kalenji success :).

I take of my Ipod and set it on the wall with my Bag. After that I begin with a few precisions which recently have become very nice and quiet a technique I call "Hitting centre point."

This technique is when I put my power into my height which I acheive maximum at my centre jump, instead of depending on the power to land on the 2nd obstacle I reach my feet and legs out, for a more precise landing. I have started going through alot more leg conditioning to acheive bigger precisions whilst using the centre point technique.

Anyway I also move around the area in a fluid manner I get my heart working I get a sweat going. Shortly afterwards I try a more technical manner which involves harder movments which in a way is a good workout. So I started working on my kong to handstand to front roll, wall dash. After that I moved on to a very difficult 180 cat (difficult for me) which I have taken a picture off (Top).

After that I went for a walk look at the sea and thought deep about some stuff about the past which in fairness I came to terms with :).

London

2009-09-03T16:51:00.000-07:00

Today was my first Parkour trip to London. I must say I pulled of more than I expected, however by saying that I did see obstacles that much more advanced people have pulled of. I thought to myself "Wow thats big and that is a big drop, if I ever fell I'm done for." What followed after that was "Either way its still possible with hard training and dedication."

So although appearing difficult I think I have it in me to get there. I also returned to Weymouth even though I was tired pulled of a huge 180 cat.

Practice makes perfect right ??

Beyond

2009-08-22T17:52:00.000-07:00

I wanted to post this before I forgot about it.
I banged my knee earlier this week and it was a rather big bruise but nothing bad, I'm fine now.

During the time of my injury me and my friends found a lot of cool new spots to practice. My friend josh has really deidcated himself to Parkour and other people have joined along our Parkour group which is nice.

However I realised today that although it is nice to have company this is my journey. I am knowing what kind of person I am in Parkour which is mainly independant even in the presance of company.

So I started thinking of the bigger movements I am thinking of trying and it made me smile when I thought back to myself.
"It is possible."
So I have my new areas to practice I am getting stronger but thats all up to me I have decided how much more I wanna take this but understanding that this is something I can only do myself.

My friends will be there to support me but what I wanna accomplish is a more personal decision.

What also triggered this was me being nervous due to new pair of shoes and my recovering knee but then I just said.
"Pike shut up and do it."
And that was it :)

Week update

2009-08-16T15:05:00.000-07:00

This week has been an intensive one. I have been out training Parkour with my friends 5 hours everyday for 6 days straight.

I feel my hamstrings tightening up blisters on my feet and the aching of the muscles all over my neck and back. I won't be going out tomorrow :P.

This week has been good lots of practcing of movments, bounding, kong precisions, running precisions, rail precisions. Fluidity has been one thing also. I need the rest but today was very good.

I managed to land several nice wallflips on solid concrete on a straight wall, also pulling of a 180 front flip of a small ledge. I was rather pleased with myself :) I shall be filming my 2009 vid which should take place Friday.

Parkour in my early days

2009-08-04T14:09:00.000-07:00

Yer I came back to Weymouth due to saving money and the cut on my knee which will take a few days to heal. But I couldn't get my head around the emotions I felt after seeing Ariel so many memories of my 14 year old self who was inspired and look up to him came back to me.

So I decided to post a more detailed example of my Parkour journey between the months of augest and november 2006 not just the Parkour but the events that happened outside of the Parkour which I think it influanced.

So I started Parkour in June and I will admit I had very low confeidence but Parkour then wasn't a full commitment it was a hobbie of mine that become a large part of my life and everything else that followed in my life was like part of my Parkour journey.
So as I started Parkour I become stronger my muscles started to show I became more socially involved with more people as well as girls. Even when with a girl being with them was like them becoming part of my Parkour journey which then was my life. Looking back at my Parkour it was kinda like discovering a super power I was very open about it and I was know to do Parkour all the time it was in my nature. However now although it is something I do alot! and spend time practicing even if it is just working out in my bedroom I am more secretive about it.
If I go to meet up with some friends to have a drink or become involved with someone my Parkour in my mind switches of.

So pretty much my Parkour lifestyle has an on and off button these day depending on my what kind of crowd I am in. I am alot less social now than I was 3 years ago.

Back then when I started year 10 I would go out call on my friends either Clarky or Tulloch and meet up with others up town and we would do Parkour. However even when we went to the connaughty youth club to see our non Parkour friends I would still be in that state of mind. I could be at home playing my xbox and still be in the Parkour state of mind.

During the autum of 2006 I started taking more risks in Parkour, Clarky and the other guys would take it more serious and we found ourselves meeting up with people from different towns learning new things about Parkour new ways to move. I remeber every sunday I would have some form of cuts and bruises to my leg area in which I prayed my knee was ok to move so I could do Parkour during my school break.
As I mentioned before the Parkour state of mind never switched of then I wouldnt warm up it was simply konging over the walls and kong to cats or pop vaults. Now I never do Parkour without warming up for at least 10 minutes.

I remeber I could be at home playing away at my xbox after a Parkour session then Clarky would be knocking on my door asking if I was coming out to train. Even at 1 degrees duirng a cold October night I said sure. Duirng haloween of 2006 after people being round my house because I usally ran what we called "halo jams." which meant 8 people on 2 xboxs playing halo. That night me and clarky knowing the risks that police where about we went out and done Parkour.
I remeber seeing Skelderz near the shops area. Clarky and I listened to him talk indepth about Parkour if I were to see him now I would say to him. that everything he said became true to me later on.

So the reason I wrote this is I notice after seeing Ariel and my Parkour performances in the past 2 months how much I have grown in my journey as well as a human being. It's strange having memories of me being a 14 year old who went about doing Parkour not knowing any of the physical aspects to it like I do now. It's strange how I had all these older more experianced tracures like Ariel and Skelderz telling me there perspective from there journey only being able to relate to it now. Everything back then was so different but so nice :).

Parkour, travelling, injuries, reunions and looking back

2009-08-03T15:46:00.000-07:00

Well in the last few weeks I have gone to Aberdeen which was ok :) no as good as I imagined but still very good then I spent a week in Weymouth doing alot of Parkour trainig both with friends and on my own with good progression.

I then went back to Corby to see my old friends and since being in Corby I have seen man of my old friends.

I also bumped into Ariel whilst I was training and to my shock he could still pull of his flips it was very good to see him again. Each time I see im it reminds of when I was younger around 14 years old looking up to him and others.

Now I follow my own journey with many inspirations but I become my own inspiration as I suprise myself round every corner of my journey.

Sadley even though I'm progression well overcoming obstacles and performing movements that suprise me evrytime but somehow appear natrual to me I did injure my knee earlier today.

I was doing a fairly large kong to cat which I manage to do several times which then I continued onto another obstacle keeping the movement going I banged my knee of the first wall whilst doing the kong to cat again thinking I had it under control. The cut along my knee isn't bad but it will take 2 or so days to heal.

I learnt my lesson ^_^

Aberdeen

2009-07-19T23:54:00.001-07:00

I'm going to aberdeen in a few hours which will involve an 11 hour train journey =(.

However It shouldnt be to long, anyway I look forward to seeing the guys there and I hope it's as good as I thought it will be.

Where to begin :P

2009-07-16T18:35:00.000-07:00

Ok where to start really. The last week of Parkour has been amazing I love it I enjoy doing it, it is what keeps me going. I feel happier, more able and more confedent. My gymnastics is coming on fine Sunday will be my last session for a few weeks since it will be the summer term.

I am going Aberdeen in 3 days I look forward to it. I shall be seeing Danno a traceur I have not seen since I first started Parkour in 2006. I admire this person alot and I really look forward to seeing him again :).

What I wanted to say though was I cannot get round how much things have changed since September. At first I thought nothing of it but then when I thought about it I was shocked. Everything felt different they way I was the way I acted, dressed, walked, talked, ran, thought and done Parkour. It wasnt a very nice time in my life back then I was going through deep denial my training wasnt top notch either. But hey I'm here now I have good friends but most of all I trust myself and my ever growing abilities.

I cannot explain how this happened or why it happened but I'm happy these last 9/10 months have been the most intresting who knows what the next 9/10 months bring :).

:)

Summer update

2009-06-30T16:57:00.000-07:00

It is the 1st July I havnt updated this in a while :).
My Parkour training has been very good I just feel good about it. I went back to corby for a week and pulled of movements I never thought I could manage. When I done it however in my head and my heart I felt ready I trusted my new improved strangth, speed and ability and went for it.

Several people have commented on my improvement but I didnt feel the need to ask I knew in myself that I'm doing good.

I'm just gonna keep pushing myself and enjoy growing in my mind and my body. :)

Vlogs

2009-06-17T16:47:00.000-07:00

Ok so I have started making Vlogs, now unlike my friends from Bournemouth Andy jay and Sam lands I shall not filming everyday just the days where I happen to train. Day 1 last night was good however short I shall make the effort probably friday. However tomorrow is my resting day I will probably go out and film anyway lol.

Anyway I have finished college I have 3 months of. I shall be travelling and training lots during those 3 months and I probably won't make another entry till September. If people read this in future check the Vlogs channel for the update on the summer events.

www.youtube.com/PikeVlog

June :)

2009-06-10T05:43:00.000-07:00

Well since my last blog I have done alot of Parkour and it has been good I havn't done any this week though but plan on today or tomorrow. Gymnastics is going great I got sideflips high and back tucks high. Still need more practice but it's all good I enjoy it.

I have gymnastics tonight so I shall practice what comes to mind when I'm there.

My weighed myself and measured my height during the weekend also. Last time I done this was December 2008 and I was 5foot 11.2 inches and I weighed 11stone even. Now I am 5foot 11.6 inches and now weigh 11 stone 10lbs which is the heaviest I have ever been in my life but it's good. In December I only just started getting into gymnastics full time and my Parkour training was weak. I do hope I stop growing I'm almost 6ft I'm tall enough :P.

Anyway with my working out I have focused more on leg work and it's going really well.

Post 7

2009-05-31T14:00:00.000-07:00

This week has been strange, a guy from bournemouth came to Weymouth and seeing his parkour abailities made me very self concious about myself.

I thought that I was bulky and couldn't control my balance or running. So i decided to learn the very basic's of Parkour ...... Running and walking.

Working on my entire body positioning, keeping my shoulders back and never forward, running with strides and confedence. Keep good speed also.

So it has been strange and I have been very self concious about my overall body apperance. (Hight, walk, run, body position.) However it is true I do seem abit stiff and un confident when running into a move something I am working on now.

Either way I try not to be to self criticle because the past week has been good.

A few words

2009-05-23T16:33:00.000-07:00

I just wanted to say a few days ago I thought I hit a wall that I felt I could'nt overcome. But I watching a video been inspired and knowing within myself knowing that with hard enough work I can acheive what I set my heart on.

It is something I am willing to do and it makes me happy :).

Recent update

2009-05-20T14:31:00.000-07:00

It's been a while since my last entry. Alot has happened since then I started adding more protien to my diet and have been conditoning alot more.

Was out doing Parkour today and it has been alot of fun. Believing myself and my ability has helped me over come new and challenging obstacles some easy some not so easy but all fun. I'm alot happier with my Parkour training I enjoy it and my constant playing around on scaffolding has made my upper body strength better.

As for gym it has been intresting I have learnt new tricks and Sunday was a 3 hour long gym session which took till now to recover from :P.

My front tucks are high my sideflips are high but need more work as I fall backwards sometimes. My backhandsprings are abit sideways my back tucks are ok but I'm still nervous with them and don't go for the height I could really get. I also attempted Btwists which turned out ok :). Next gym session is Friday and I should be going Bournemouth Saturday too for a jam session.

I'm gonna keep on going and I hope the summer is a good one. Currently I'm not filming and don't want to maybe in September I shall film :).

Preperation

2009-05-11T05:10:00.000-07:00

Hell night was good it still begins to build up more and more each time. The following day (Friday) was a 2 hour gym session which I must say was intresting. I wont get into much detail but I found my gymnastics getting more eficiant. Then came Sunday I got the train to Braksome and walked to rossmore. By far one of the most fun gym sessions I had ever had. Standing websters with ease. 1 footed front flip precisions of about 4ft improved speed and height in backflips and same with cyclones. I attempted a sideflip out of curisoity and landed it with an akward twist to it. Something to work on.

So when making my way back towards the train station back to Weymouth I smiled and thought "Wow what an awsome gym session." My Parkour and conditioning is paying off but I don't want to stop their.

With more conditioning added to my legs mainly shins, calfs and quads I have increase in virtical height. With the different foods tried this week mainly samon and borcalli also including more fruit and including meals such as rice and chicken.

So with this in mind I want to add these foods in a more routine manner adding more healthy foods and putting the junk in moderation i.e. choclate ;).

Also I found a freestyle gymnastics based in Yeovil which is only 20 miles north of Weymouth. I am most likley going to check that out in 2 weeks time. It is held on a Sunday 1:30pm - 3:00pm Also the train fair is only £4.50 return bargin ;).

Also as well just a way to push more forward to what I want to acheieve in my Parkour and Gymnastics development I decided to commit 2 weeks (starting today) towards a protein diet mainly fish and lots of fruit. Drinking lots of water and eating lots of weetabix.

Today being Monday heres todays workout.

Shins :
3 sets of 100 shin raises (Both legs together)
After 100 hold the shin raise position for 60 seconds

3 sets of 80 shin raises (1 leg each)
After 80 hold the shin position for 30 seconds (maybe 40)

3 sets of 80 shin raises ( toes pointing inwards together)
After 80 hold the shin position for 30 seconds

Other various shin excercises will follow as I experiment with them.

Calfs :
5 sets of 100 calf raises (both legs together)
After 100 hold the claf raise position for 60 seconds

5 sets of 100 up and down calf movments (both legs together)

Quads :

4 sets of 50 wide leg squats
Hold squat position for 60 seconds after 50

4 sets of 50 one legged side squats (25 each side)
Hold position for 60 seconds after 25

4 sets of 50 launges (25 each leg)
hold position for 60 seconds after 25

Duck walk back and forth 30 times (Just over 2 meters)

Anothers day training

2009-05-03T12:25:00.000-07:00

So I have been training today with a friend of mine and It has been really fun. A few flips here and there. I never done anything I hadnt done before but Is till enjoyed it. Just doing what I can already do and working on it.

Scaffolding swinging is getting easier I can hold flags for longer and my muscle ups are faster too. I wont be putting much in my blog anymore maybe once or twice a week. The only thing really for me to say is Hell night is 4 days away and I'm looking forward to it. I will try this routine for about 16 weeks and see if it helps me out.

I'm still continuing with my conditioning and thats all I have to say really :).

Todays lucky word is Ankle swinger.

Moving forward

2009-05-01T07:08:00.000-07:00

So I put my feelings about that girl aside and I decided to train on some scaffolding and I did stuff I didnt think my body could manage I was doing high level pull ups. Swinging to other poles distances I didnt think I could manage. After 45 minutes I couldnt lift my forearms they were heavy.

When I jogged home I felt like a gorrilla because my arms were flapping beside me, I just couldnt move them up. At the same time I'm jogging I have a huge smile on my face. I must of looked like an escaped mental patient.

So I get home and find out a friend of mine has become a member of urban freeflow I couldnt beleive it I was so happy for him and it made me beleive anything is possible. Some things are difficult than others. All that conditoning the previous week had paid of but I won't stop there I will condition harder every week to reach my dreams and ambitions.

Todays lucky word is "Swine flu" A hybrid flu virus people beleive to do with pigs.

Willpower

2009-04-29T14:47:00.000-07:00

So I have been training I feel myself getting stronger. Its only been a week since I started it so the results wont show straight away. Parkour training is going great I push myself I'm becoming confiedent and I'm happier.

Gymnastics is great also tricks are becoming easier to pull of. On sunday I was training with a friend of mine and we were climbing a cliff and I never knew how weak I really was when it came to climbing. But I decided to keep on going and I will keep on climbing until it becomes easier.

Now in my life with new boundries I take complex situations as a test to me. A test for my Willpower. I have been involved with a girl for the past week but deep down I feel that it is just a waste of time. She has her life and I have mine I try listening to her I try my best to understand her but I personally feel inexperainced at this time to really help her or fully understand her. I feel my Willpower being tested to simply move along and continue with my training with my friends. The willpower to put all emotional needs and egotistic feelings aside and purse what really matters to me.

So if I have to put it behind me and set my emotions aside then that is what I shall do.

Day 2

2009-04-23T14:09:00.000-07:00

Another day of conditioning to a point I'm pushing myself.

I left my house at 21:09 and began to jog. Across the industrial estate and past the lesuire centre. I then jog down a familiar road past an abandoned building of some kind. I then pass the victoria square where I put my attention on the new scaffolding I done muscle ups on the other day. But the sound of Pendulum makes me want to run another lap past the castle and back past the abandoned building. Once past I decide to make my way across the road towards the scaffolding.

My chest is burning I must of breathed to heavy during my run....

So I look at the scaffolding and begin to do pull ups I do 5 and hold it for 10 seconds. I drop down and do another 5 pull ups and hold it for 10 seconds. Then I done a flag for a couple of seconds.

I then focused on actullypushing my body more so I done dead hang with my legs locked at almost 90 degree angle. I held for 20 seconds and dropped. Not enough I say I hold again but this time for 30 seconds. I drop still not enough I hold for 40 seconds.

Ok thats enough but can I hold for 50 seconds ? I attempt but my arms feel like led and I drop after 20 seconds. Is this all my body is capable. Im not as strong as I thought I was but I smile at the fact I have so much room for improvement. I think ok I will return again and again but push harder hold longer. During my moments of scffolding excercising many men in business suits walked past me. They looked at me in such strange ways. I asked myself will I ever wear a suit like that one day. I couldnt bare to live life without pushing myself just wearing a suit everyday.

So I walk back to the industrial area as my Ipod plays. The sound of Gwen Stafanis voice puts a smile on my face even bigger than it was. So I jog back to the industrial site where I repeat last nights workouts on the over grip climb ups. At this point my triceps and wrist muscles feel so huge I can barley move them.

So as I hang in a cat leap position I begin 10 clean no struggling climb ups I get to 7 with doubt on my mind but I say "If you stop now I may as well quit Parkour forever." Eminems voice keeps me distracted while I complete my last climb up I decide to hang for 2o seconds after which I do another 5 climb ups. I hold but drop.

Im exhusted and decide to go home to get a glass of water. Tonigh was amazing I want more. I wanna try harder, I can feel the toll on my body but I merly laugh and smile "I want more I want more."

HA... Ok tomorrow more training. It has been nearly 3 years since I started Parkour but only feels like day 2 :). What does day 3 offer ?

Aftermath

2009-04-22T14:24:00.000-07:00

It is 22:25 I have just finished my night training session. I have never sweated like tht before in my life.

I jogged about half a mile to get things of my chest then returned to get a jumper. After which I warmed up. I ran up a wall and put myself in a cat leap position. A nice easy over grip climb up was what I had in mind. So I done 10 and dropped down. Then I done another 10. Then another 10 but I got to 9 and slipped on the last one back to the floor. So then I made my way across the car park and deicded to precision a fairly easy gap. Of one big rock over another rock and land on the third. Jumping from one onto the third and back counts as 1. So I done 10 and decided to try 10 more. By number 19 I fell of the rock and decided to try another 10. By number 6 I was tired but kept myself going and finished. Then decided to do 5 more to finish of.

I sat down for a second and seen chain going across. Jumping over and back again counts as 1. By number 8 my calfs were num. So I finished on 10. My body felt like that was enough for today so I finished out with another 5 climb ups. I decided to get to 10 once I reached 5.

By then I was sweating like I had done a 5 mile run. So I warmed down and thought to myself. "I should of done this sooner." it has taken 2 years to start pushing :( but oh well. Continue I shall =D how far can I push myself Friday?

Night session

2009-04-22T12:40:00.000-07:00

It is 20:43 right now I am waiting for my Ipod shuffle to charge so that I can go out and train. I have been reading Blanes blogs. I am intrested in trying his theory on pushing the body to the point were you can feel anything

Cat leaps over and over again, kong precisions over and over again ect.

I'm intrested to know how far my body can really go. As i said to myself the other week even though I have been doign Parkour for 2 years only recently does it feel like day 1.

After gym last night I slept for 15 hours and had the most bizarre dreams ever. Dreams that I was talking to people I havnt spoken to in a long time. Old girlfriends, old friends that I was once involved with in Parkour. Yet the conversations were so vivid I can even remeber them now.

Dreams are an intresting thing.

Now I must leave to take a dump and continue on towards my night parkour training.

Tomorrow ?

2009-04-19T18:19:00.000-07:00

I had a small Parkour session Saturday night and a trick session today on the grass.

With my tricking it didnt feel like anything spectacular. But I was happy and after about 20 minutes I stopped and thought. "This is the start of it all." Rather than being annoyed because I couldnt pull of an amazing front tuck like my coaches. I just thought " I'm looking forward to trying all this in the gym tuesday."

I felt patiant and excited. I guess it is a way of controlling my emotions. Not being to attached or being egotistic. But simply happy, content and aiming my mindset on the next stage whenever that maybe acheived. I would love to apply this control to how I feel everywere. I know longer want to be involved with those that I feel akward around.

I know what kind of person I am now and I know what I want to do. That is I want to train in such a way that I cant even imagine what tomorrow will be like. What will my training be like tomorrow what will I acheieve, what will I learn from tomorrow?

Also I wonder who I may come across tomorrow that I may learn from. The thing is I dislike a repetative routine. Some things I may do on a daily basis may have a similar role but surely they are all unique in some ways ?

Either way I like knowing tomorrows training can be unique from any other day the question is though will I even be training tomorrow :P

Another day

2009-04-16T07:13:00.000-07:00

Right now I'm in my kitchen on my laptop chilling out. It's a sunny day and I can see the beach through my window. I can also see Weymouth on the otherside of the beach.

In about 2 hours I'm going trampolining, I enjoy it and I wanna learn something new. It's been a while since I done trampolining because of my commitment to gymnastics and parkour. But I'm bored so why not :P.

I'm kind of going through a resting stage the Parkour training I had done in Corby last week left me exhausted and has taken me 3 days to recover from properly. I have worked out abit during those 3 days. I bought these handles from argos used for arm and shoulder conditioning. Som of the stuff I was doing I could feel work way more better than my regular press ups and other push up variations I have done before.

Anyway I might do some Parkour tomorrow before trampolining try and widen my vision more. Since my 17th birthday I'm finding myself doing more different Parkour movments. Some times I will do precisions, running precisions. climb ups, kong precisions. Or just whatever that comes to my head that I find a challenege to me keeping in mind the words that help me in training. "Adapt and Overcome."

Adapt and overcome

2009-04-15T18:02:00.000-07:00

From the books I have been reading since my shoulder injury which happened in early February this year, the change in me took a drastic change for the better. However this change in me doesnt stop with the helpful knowledge and wisdom of the books (Ageless mind Timeless body) and (Silent Power). The emotional and stress problems I have been experaincing mostly due to teenage hormones :P, I can find it difficult.

But shortly after my 17th birthday I feel myself adapting to my body and slowly understanding myself. Experaincing knowledge through silence. When I keep myself silent I become more aware of everything else especially when someone is talking to me. I take in their knowledge so that I will use it myself at some point.

Another thing I kept in mind to myself was. There will be times I will find myself in a paticularly negative enviroment or a situation where I don't feel myself. The words simply. "Adapt and overcome" have a great meaning to me.

To me the words. "Adapt and overcome." says to me understand, learn, become one and move onwards.

In college their have been moments where I feel akward and ego dominated. Also a level of attachment that has been breaking me down slowly. So I ask myself how can I "Adapt and overcome."

I simply choose not to take in the knowledge from my college peirs, I myself found it difficult living their lifestyle. I choose to be silent but take in the knowledge around me, understand the people that surround me in that area. Most importantly not become attached on an emotional level.

My change in attitude in Parkour has changed me all together. I just hope such knowledge I have learnt since can help me dettached from it all and then overcome so that I can move on to the next stage of my life.

Easter =D

2009-04-14T10:46:00.000-07:00

It's been almost 4 weeks since my last post I don't know why :S.

My birthday was on the 29th March I got myself a few pairs of Kalenjis and they are the best shoes I have ever worn. For my birthday I had a 6 hour parkour jam with a few mates around Weymouth and then to finish the day of a 2 hour gym session in Poole, I never been so tired before in my life.

After which I started Parkour in other areas of Weymouth I had never tried before. Within a few hours all of the conditioning both body an mind really took its toll. Everything felt easyier, I understood my body more I moved easier and faster.

After a week of full on Parkour training I had to rest for a day or 2, afterwards was some gymnastics.

Gymnastics felt more easier tricks were higher got some stuff filmed and put it on youtube.

When college finished for the Easter I went back to my home town of Corby. At first it was great meeting up with the local traceurs.

It had been almost 4 months since I was last in Corby and with all the conditioning and new attitude to what I do everything else was easier I found myself pulling of movements I couldnt do before.

Within the next few days I realised how shit the town really is my old friends I trained Parkour with during 2006-07 were constantly drinking taking drugs pissed out there heads. There would be times people found my movements and acrobatic like skills impressive some spoke to me about Parkour most others would either say. "I can do that." or "I can do double that."

That kind of attitutde reminded me how much of a shit hole the town was and why I moved. Not many people will respect or admire anyone who shows a "different" or "unusual" type of skills you or I will learn.

The thing was it never made me angry it made me pity the fact that rather than embrace the site of skills and acheievement from others people decide to throw their negative comments upon that person.

Shortly afterwards after thinking about it I understood more and more about why I do what I do. Knowledge passed down by the ones before us to share with us what human beings can really do and show that "Nothing is impossible." But many of us are not brought up to belieive such things and carry on living our day to day lives in normaility. A life filled with emotional attatachment and dependancey on one another.

What we forget is that rather than depend on other beings to fullfill our own emotional needs we should be taken in the real knowledge from the strangers you meet everyday of your life. Even those you dislike through your life will most certainly carry a valuble teaching that you one day will carry with you for the rest of your life.

I think we need to stop putting down others with our ignorance and share our love for one anothers skill. We need to share the knowledge passed down by the ones before which made us who we are. We forget why we are here in the first place.

The most intelligent people will die, some very young. But their knowledge will pass on by like a pollonating flower. The knowledge I speak of is not what is read from texts books but instead understanding there sacrifice, what they beleived in is the real knowledge that surrounds us in our everyday lives. The knowledge from those before us is constantly communicating to us like a voice in our heads but most of us are so ignorant this knowledge is cast aside.

I myself have showed ignorance but these last 6 months has been like a roller coaster of body, mind and spirtual awarness. I practice Parkour because I beleive that a hidden knowledge awaits for those who seek it. A journey that cannot be described but experianced.

So that when I one day will pass away like every other human being my knowledge will spread across the world and embraced by those who seek it so that they too can carry on the path of the knowledge that our predassecors sacrificed their own physical existance for.

So the next time I myself or you feels put down by a remark made by a spectator whos only desire is to hurt with there ignorance just send them a silent thought saying. "If only you knew."

That person will probably walk away very doubtful about themselves questioning their own ability which will lead to more doubt in themselves.

One step back Two steps forward

2009-03-21T15:43:00.000-07:00

I was at Bourenmouth last night and it was good my bakc tucks were nice I learnt how to webster with an obstacle to put my foot on. Havn't got the hang of flat ground websters :/.

With my front tucks they were fine in Rossmore but Rossmore is a sprung floor gym. So being in bournemouth with a hard floor was a different result. My coach who is very talented at gymnastics showed me and gave me advice on front tucks. Although doing it his way was a whole different method but in a way made sense.

Trying it his way was a different story but either way it does seem more effective. His method is throwing the arms up but travelling at an almost stright up angle which in theory is scary. Most people in the gym lean just a bit including myself who travels about 2 yards sometimes when doing fronts. Also he tucks extremly tight which gave him the speed to spin right round onto his feet.

I'm up for changing my own technique to learn it that way. Some people say to me"If you make one step back you make two steps forward." Which is kinda the case at the minute.

Today as well I went trampollining to pay my months money for training and it had been a while since I had been on a trampoline due to my shoulder injury. But my somersaults where almost effort less and higher which shows a sign of progression.

So yer I'm happy with it all even though I was a bit pissed of with my front tucks on friday it just takes time.

Step forward

2009-03-19T14:19:00.000-07:00

Well my shoulder is getting better and now I have started going gymnastics 3 times a week now tuesday, friday and sunday.

Gymnastics is one of my favourite hobbies by far and never really thought i got enough of it until this week I have never done more than 1 session a week of gymnastics.

This week has been fun and progressive I have had so much fun and it makes me happy the fact that everytime a session ends I just think oh well only 2 days till ma next session while before I would get as much done in one session knowing that I had to wait another week before I could work on what I was doing.

I'm back to my working out routine with the odd weights involved. As well as Parkour I was out the night before experimenting with another form of movement. That also was alot of fun and has made me look forward to returning to my home town in 2 weeks. Which is a very fun place for me to do Parkour.

Even though I'm having a great time with gymnastics and progression I still miss my old friends, progression was worth it all when they where around. I never imagined how lonley I would get when I moved.

Almost healed

2009-03-10T08:53:00.000-07:00

As I said before the back injury as gave me time to think, time to get to know myself. Recently I have spoken to a few friends of mine and told them how I really felt about certain things in my life.

I told them that I would sometimes lie about my progression to make me sound better than I really was. One truth solves a thousand lies. Being honest with them as well as myself felt good, the reason was in the past I trained alone and wanted people to admire me for it. However things have changed I train in a gym with very experianced people who are friendly and have played an important role in my progression.

Seeing their attitudes and respects towards their lifestyle must of opened my eyes in a way as I grow closer to 17 I feel more commited to my ambitions and lifestyles. 17 might not sound old but it is not the age that matters it is what I learn that matters, you dont need to be old to grow as a human being.

So all those small lies and big headed like attitude thats all in the past because what I have experianced in the past 2-3 months is bigger than all that. This is not just a hobby or a way to keep fit this is life and a whole new vision. I see myself in a different way almost everyday, I know my ways of right and wrong and also I see what makes me different from other groups of people. Rather than feel let down of different for my odd views I keep on going and let life unfold in its natrual way.

This is still the start of a very long journey ;)

Injured

2009-03-08T12:55:00.000-07:00

I have pulled the muscles next to my shoulder blades and I had to miss gym and trampolining also I havnt been able to do any Parkour but thats cool revovery is important :P.

This time of has been important to me It reminds me why I enjoy training and I look forward to getting back into hopfully this week.

Also as well it is nearing my 17th birthday and it goes to show I am getting older. I indeed feel the change approach me I consider what is important to me and what is not important to me. I'm starting to feel more of an appreciation for everything in my life. My parents, my house, my old friends, my health and the people who have came and went in my life who have opened my eyes to something else.

My overall attitude is changing, rather than be furstarted at my lack of progress I become thankful to those around me who are making their time and effort to help me progress and also for their inspiration. After that I then say to myself the reason why I am not landing this move is because of this or because of that.

So as I begin to grow I understand myself and my body sense of what I can achieve :)